dependent, independent

I'm in the middle of arranging the variable. seriously all works just like a spoiler. how to make all come together. ah at least two subject measure the same. but....

this is what really kill me now.

seriously, this what I really want to feel. but.. I'm afraid I can't cope. HAHA.

keep praying for me. it's quite hard. hmph.


okkk hard.... since it's hard, sometimes my dependent level is up.too much. sometimes I would rather kill myself bcs I see it worst for people around me. urgh.

but.....

since I can't really depent on anybody anymore, I look at my tough leg, and ya I must stand on my own leg and be strong.

be strong like seriously strong. For any probs that I have, I can't share anymore. just in case really need to share, I will just cry while driving.

ya driving is the perfect time to cry! bcs? macam aman je. so kadang kadang aku rasa macam gila gak. tengah drive pegi nangis. hahaha. but this just me. but I wish nothing bad will happen. Aminn.


so now I need a independent spirit. come to me lai.

I really hope I can finish what I just start. PRAY AND KEEP PRAY. Aminn.