something bothering

Assalamualaikum =)


Alhamdulillah all went very well for this week. betol lah tu, sebalik kesedihan, kenangisan we're going to be more strong and enthusiastic i could say.

Monday this week was a big suck on me! almost cried in 2H class. and did cry while session with form four students. ha ha ha. then malam tu muhasabah diri, plan for good and all, alhamdulillah tuesday went so well sampai la hari ni.


oh ya bothering!

tadi ada evaluation form tu. ada 4 evaluation form. sekali kak ros (site supervisor) dia kata record session and give the hard copy to her, then she will evaluate. ohmakkau! record session? auchh!

buat sesi kalo buang teori, micro skill, semua tu memang senang. bila nak bubuh tu yang jadi payah tu. selalu aku tak dan rapport-rapport sangat pon, teros direct. isk isk. dah tu camana niii???

so, should plan and think of something. tak kan nak gebey lagi kan macam belaja-belaja dulu? hikhik. tak tak, gonna make this for real. lagi pon ya i'm grown up! ecehh.

inshaAllah, ini kan proses pembelajaran. dulu je proses kejar pointer. mih mih.


ok itu saja hat bothering.

hek eleh awak ni, orang penat-penat R ke dia, dia hilang pulak. tapi ni kan kamis. paham-paham jela. he's normally awayyy on kamis. bercanda mesra dengan bini studio dia. finee! haha. kena la paham je. nak clingy sangat pon aku rasa cemuih gak. so just nice la lagu ni. busy, busy, busy then meet cerita and share everything sampai muntah.

macam orang matang-matang tu. plus, we both are getting older but you much much older than me lah. =p

inshaAllah juga, for the current space gonna bring to much much sweet relationship and inshaAllah one infinity relationship. infinity and eternal... amin Allah. =)


ok dah terjiwang. kbai!



ALAA MALASNYA NAK TULIS SESSION KALO TAIP KAN BEST. isk!

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Assalamualaikum =)


ecewaahhh, such a grown up girl lah buat tajuk formal-formal gituu. grown up, i'm moving to another life stage. even it just a internship stage, it teaches me a lot. alhamdulillah, atas semua senang susah ni, i appreciate them all and inshaAllah can be useful to my next next next career, shich i don't know what it is.

waking up at 2AM, realize that i did promise to help group of my students who hate to be at school tomorrow, make my eye realllyyyy bengang hamat hamat. mau tak bengang, tido dengan google-ing educational thing, pasti la tido lagi best. tapi sebab dah janji, and... yeah they such the destroyer for the school and class pon kalo duduk dekat sekolah tu, so baik cuba tunjukkan jalan lain ke dorang.

google, google, google... serius, kalo apa-apa info relate to Malaysia memang sangat susah. ada web tak complete, tak update, bla bla bla. almost fed up. but i met this one blog. blog cikgu kaunseling. very helpful! though i'm not find any of the places for my students yet, ni bukan salah blog tu ka apa, ni sebab dah salah timing dorang tu, yela dah almost March kan. apa lagi nak buat. isk.

so this is the blog... http://www.cikgukaunseling.com/


ok i need to keep searching. harap dapat la tolong dorang tu sepatah dua info. inshaAllah... =)

okbai! =)

when i need so it is.

but...


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this is how! and...

40 % sometimes reduced. OH! =(

weekend yang indah. =p

Assalamualaikum =)

aku betol-betol dah rasa macam orang tua bebs. bila weekend tu macam rindu gegila. rindu ke bilik, baju-baju yang tak basuh, ke katil. tapi.... seems this weekend not really mine. they not really love me. isk isk. okay nangis geds - geds je nih. =)


so, before i start with the works i want to update few things la here. kata dah dapat internet free kat bilik kan. sooo..... =)


Saturday... the day where i went to school and join the HARI KAWAD KAKI peringkat sekolah. got the chance for be an emcee. BEST! tipu la best sampai capslock but yeah i love the chance. at least i got the platform to test bakat. hik hik hik. and after all, school setting is not like university setting where there are thousands of best best person who have the great talent till i can't show any of my talent. eh macam cerita sedih pulak. haha. no no actually ya you know everything in UIA is in english. so where is the chance i want to be an emcee? nak emcee BM, BI... err err err. boleh cuma kurang hebat. =)

PBSM group =)

before balik cikgu join dak-dak pengakap kat belakang sekolah, ajak tangkap gambo sepatah dua. hik hik.

i think i really need full set of safi rania gold. yelaa ahkak dah tua. garisan bawah mata dah lahir. garisan tepi mata dah nak di bersalinkan dah tuu. eh stress lah pandang muka sendiri kat cermin. jadi sebelum betol-betol beransur tua, yang mana nanti ahkak baru 30 orang pi teka 35, baik laa berusaha dari sekarang. kot boleh jadi mantap cara kak ita che wan keee... mana tau khen. so, HI safi rania gold! honestly its so wangi, and BEST gils. rasa macam kejap kejap nak sapu toner dia, nak sapu pelembap dia, eh semua lah. so, pada ahkak-ahkak yang dah rasa perubahan pada muka tu, jom lah join i! hik hik.

gambo hat ni ja ada dalam phone. 

and for Sunday, still we went to the school lil bit late, biasa bro overslept. went for the watikah perlantikan pengawas rehearsal. again, me and jiha try to be the emcee again. why emcee? bcs, that's the most easier job or task i could say compared to others. hahaha. (tak dak gambaq hat ni. dak-dak tu ja tangkap gambaq aku malas keluar phone ka apa, masa ni kepala macam atas katil je lagi)

then after that, me spend the time with room mates. IKEA here we come. selalu mai sini dengan moja tak pon jiha. kalo aku drive pon, aku memang tak penah hafai jalan pasai depa yang salu tunjuk aku tukang tekan minyak pusing stereng saja. tapi tadi memang aku ja yang penah pi memang aku la yang kena tau semua. ada sekali kena hon berjemaah dengan kereta-kereta belakang sebab salah simpang, pastu aku benti tengah-tengah simpang, corner mengejut. muahahaha. tapi tak dak apa pon. depa ja semangat ngat nak pin pin orang. cis!

the kenyang-ians! gila bapak kenyang baq ang. aku tamak tak ingat, nak 15 unit makan sorang-sorang. tapi i iz lapar hokayy. nasib bek habis. hik hik.

verangan-verangan taimmm!!

ok dah. jom continue buat kejaa. esok dah la kena pi pagi and mungkin dok sekolah sampai petang. tak tau la camana level mengantok tu sat gi. mohon tak menjejaskan tugas harian lah. aminnn. okbai!

teacher-practical-mate! selamat bangun pagi ya para guru sekalian! =)

p/s: baju gik IKEA sama dengan baju entry bawah ni. hahaha. eh baju ni best gils wa cakap lu. ulang-ulang pakai pon best. rasa nak tambah satu lagi jee. =)

random sejuta benda.

Assalammualikum =)

1) what em i doing? got the wireless in my room. very fast! oh ya Alhamdulillah. at least now i don't need to pay for broadband. BUT.... ya, i keep blogwalking , blogwalking , blogrunning .... till tired and .. sleep! what iz that? playing with my life now huh? you think you still have time for it? come on... ni bisik hati kanan. hati kiri, eh lek lu beb! degree baru, lepak-lepak sikit. huk oloh, teo ais ikat tepi betol! isk isk. and... as usual hati kiri menang. ni dah masuk dua malam dah ni. isk. isk.


2) walking with the same shoe, same friends at the danau. got money in the wallet. got the parking not so hard la. but step on the first shop yawning. isokay lah yawning je pon. then, next shop.... wow bag! i want one. but why they are just a typical bag? why they are so boring? next shop, oh damn what i want to buy? should save some for.... ish jimat, jimat. eh apa nak beli eh? apa semua baju tak cantik ni ek? yada yada. end up going back with nothing pon. sups galz? sups? isk.


3) babbling is not the hard thing! say anything 40 students want to listen to you. BUT, am i babbling the fact? how this thing can help them? the front students are too innocent! i love them, but after all of course should give attention to the naughty one. what if the innocent turn to jerk and need attention as the back students? oh maiii oh maiii. how to be fair? GOOGLE and LEARN! instead of blogwalking gossip rumah tangga? =p


4) what did they think about me? this question can't stop flowing! till, i strive too hard to be the best! but.... it's not so success bcs ya you pretend to be somebody else. how that can be good? awak salu kata, 'you so good in the way you are!' this like a mantra la to me bila dah goyah risaukan what the student think about me. moralnya... JANGAN SELALU PIKIR PASAL ORANG, SEBAB NANTI KITA YANG TERMAKAN APA YANG KTA PIKIRKAN KE ORANG! faham???? talking to myself. no need to nod lah. ;)


5) makin hari makin sayang is a good thing. but should keep praying, moga sayang ini sayang dan cinta kerana Allah. bla bla bla bla. Allah, pelihara kami. aminnn.


6) why people love to catch the 'thing' that is hard to get? why don't they just live with everything in front of them? WHY? big WHY. or it just me? isk isk.


7) esok dan esok dan esok dan esok adalah pelajaran dan pengalaman baru buat aku, buat engkau. semoga all those new thing will be something on us. and keep IMPROVE. da tu camana nak improve kalo asyik update blog luahkan perasaan saja? haa? haaa?


okbai! =)

happy birthday to you!

Assalamualaikum =)

hik hik. geds angat tau itew. birthday punya entry pon nak update. alaa bia laa blog yang ini takpe. sebab close-close friend je tau. =)

so 19/2/2013 his birthday! now you enter another age. 24! eiii tuanya diaa. patut la mata berkedut, pipi berkedut. tapi, tapi, tapi... kedut kedut pon awak masih bulan kat mata kite. muahahaha. ok gelis!


and as predicted laa, i'm not really know how to surprise people and all. so nothing much pon laa for the birthday celebration. ada la simple-simple celebration that i think quite BEST kot. awak rasa camana pulak?

ala mana tak best. rasa lama pulak tak jumpa. ok ini geli. mana ada lama mana. cuma yela bila cuti, takde apa nak buat masa tu jalan sekat sekat. ibarat jam yang pakai batery kat kedai 5 sen.

so after do some shopping, hekhemm PT da masuk, then we went for eat. eat my craving food lak tu bukan dia. sapa punya birthday la ni?? haha. sapa suruh cakap kite makan apa-apa je, tak kisah. aku memang seronok la. sebab kalo dengan jiha and alya tu dorang bukan layan tekak i mengidam apa pon. isk. tapi korang still the best la. sebab korang tak layan laa aku overcome rasa manja-manja-geli ni. muwahh. jaga hati, jaga hati. hahahaha.

then i force him to go here.. kenapa force? dah dia tu nak jugak pegi studio tercinta tu. hey jeles okk! dah la berhari-hari lamanya tak jumpa, pastu dapat jumpa nak lagi pegi studio. haha. so studio, today he's mine for a while. ala tak lama mana, nanti amik la balik! heh. gila dengan studio pon nak JK! hahha.

here we are. aaa cantik gila lampu darit sini. tapi gelap sangat laa. pastu rasa cuak. even i think he can be trusted, but after all pompuan dengan laki berdua macam tak bagus sangat laa kan. so can't stay here for long. ala lagi pon dah malam. DBKL, buat la lampu bagi cerah sikit.... 

 the-girl-who-never-know-another-pose-besides-than-PEACEEEE! =)

sedih kan muka orang yang dah tua ni. penat sungguh... sabar laaa. study rajin-rajin. awak tak boleh malas macam kite, bcs you take such a tough course, so.... bear with it! all i can do is support you with my JK. hahaha. no la, GOOD LUCK!

bcs we never know when the exact date we getting close, serious (?), best friend, fight friend, sharing friend, annoyed friend and all, so..... i take this date as one of the precious date jugak lah. thank you for all. nothing much i could say besides than for knowing you is one of the precious moment in my life. with the hope we will stay as we now forever! stay as now jee? hahaha. you know well dude. =)

ok sekian saja entry yang sungguh geli dan geli dan geli. tak payah baca tak paa. eh tapi ni dah sampai bawah, so dah terbaca kan? so mohon la doakan this is my last and forever love. aminnnn..

okbai. =p

ok start!

Assalamualaikum =)

haih sunyi sungguh rasa. how i missed to talk and talk and talk with friends. isk.

malam ni JK aku bertambah sikit. tapi hold ja laa. nak cerita thru whatsep ka bbm ka macam malas. so.. tahan!

scroll sana sini main-main lagi. meniarap atas katil lek lek usha beautifulnara, tetiba teringat ke facebook.

usha kat group FSP and COUNSELING INTERNSHIP, i iz terkezut. bcs all i have is few more hours left for the works. mashaAllah. itu la memain lagi. tu laa tuuu...


ok kena mula sekarang. hati tahan la sikit. boleh kan? tunggu dan terus tunggu. sabar tu selalunya hasil dia lagi indah. kata mereka lah. so... why not just try!

moh ler buat keja. MALASNYAAA!!! isk.

waiting?

Assalamualaikum =)

penantian satu penyiksaan. semorang tau. aku lagi lagi lagi la tau. sebab aku selalu jadi penunggu. pakkal bukan menunggu kat batu besar tepi sungai dengan baju warna putih jee. if yes, aku syak sekarang aku dah jadi hantu penunggu kaklimah 3 dah kot.

tapi takpe je. by doing this, slowly aku rasa tahap kesabaran aku macam meningkat jadi better. mula-mula je la macam cacing kepanasan. sekarang............... get used to it kot. semua benda pon macam tu. tak sweet, lama-lama hadap perkara-perkara sweet lama-lama get used to it jugak. kan?

selingan sikit, ayam penyet di laman tu sedap baq ang. terngiang sampai laaa. nak pegi lagi esok esok esok boleh kee? sedap!


kembali ke topik menunggu...

tapi dengan sakit menunggu tu, pasti ada ubat. pasti. apa-apa sakit pon mesti ada ubat dengan izin Allah. ubat menunggu apa eh? apa eh?

para doktor sila baca. eh tak lupa juga para orang-orang yang suka membuat orang lain menunggu. tak kisah la tunggu kau siap lambat kee. tunggu kau shopping ke.. tunggu kau buat assignment kee... sila dengar yer...

ubat pertama, hargai si penunggu. i bet in your life, you must have a moment that you need to wait for someone or something. tunggu air kat kedai awe pon kira tunggu apa. so, by appreciate sakit tunggu tadi boleh hilang. kalo betol cara appreciate tu silap-silap patient tu macam tak ingat pon dia tengah tunggu. appreciate camana? contoh..... by saying sorry pon appreciate gak apa. so..... ini lah salah satu ubatnya.


ubat kedua, sedar diri sikit awak tu ditunggu. kira macam, kau tukang buat air kat kedai, lepas tu kau tau dak-dak lan todak tengah tunggu air dari kau. so ko finish kan all the water quickly and give the waters to them. mudah kan? same goes to benda-benda lain.... siap cepat sebab kau tau orang tengah tunggu ko make up, etc etc.


ubat ketiga.... aku malas pikir dah la.

cumanya, hargai orang yang mampu tunggu, boleh tunggu. tak senang. tanya diri ko sendiri dah. ko boleh tunggu lama-lama? kalo tak berhempas ke orang tu pon, paling tidak ko akan mengeluh dalam hati.

put yourself in that person shoe la baru tau rasa. hmphhh.

i'm sick of waiting. but i try my best, but by the time i found that, i don't see any worth pon for me to wait. i know who i am. always know. just.... when it about you, sometimes i forget bcs all i remember is you. with the hope i will get the same.. but...... nothing. just make it worth for me for knowing and try to understand you. could you?


we were went to MPH for book-voucherBBIM-hunting. gwa pesan ke kawan-kawan gwa, carik needs ko apa, then buy a book yang padan laa.. masa tu yang aku needs aku is LIE, LIAR. hahaha. contoh buku aku nampak yang rasa nak beli is, 'how to detect a liar'. nasib tak terbeli. haha.

and yes, till now 'WHY YOU LIE TO ME???' big question in my small head. isk.


okbai!

jiwa kacau

Assalamualaikum =)

there is a time you laugh out loud with your super crazy girlfriends but end up at night your tears can't stop from flowing out. biasa la tu ek, takkan nak happy sokmo kena nangis jugak. sebab tu..... aku selalu sedarkan diri aku yang suka tergelak melampau untuk berpijak balik kat bumi pinjaman nih.

ihiks. we on the klokium talk. stay for few hours and we start our crazy plan! and stuck till now. stuck? no stick perhaps! haha. 

ohh patutnya gambo ni dulu. otw to OU. doing nothing just.... aaaa eating + jia and farah bought make-uo bag + alya.... i'm not sure. ME? serious nothing et all. haha. PT lekas laa.

tapi tu laaa, malam ni, lepas duduk berkipas dengan girlfriends almost a day in a house, bila dapat keluar rumah, dia macam masuk air tahap melampau. masuk angin kot. air tak best sangat. so, end up i forgot to say Alhamdulillah and end end up lagi, me turn to be the pathetic girl at this hour.

how i missed to just laugh, chattig, joking like this! senanya aku dah start dah feeling for losing u gaiz! sedih oh. sebab tu jadi macam sweet-sweet je sekarang. tapi tu laa, korang tak appreciate. isk!

why? -ni why yang sambung cerita JK dari atas tuuu...

bcs.... ya you know.... aaa you know... ok nobody know. say it first.

while i am adjusting my love-life right now, which i need to keep scroll TL to forget that i have you to texting or what....................... apa la tak boleh keluar ayat apa nak tulis. serius oh taip padam, taip padam. tak tau apesal. sedih sangat ka? tak gak! just... ya i'm quite speechless.

yelaa. macam sampai hati je menipu aku. fine lah finee... setakat sembang dengan X tu tak pa lagi kot. tak kisah pon. nak buat camana kan, bukan laki aku pon. baru kawan yang tak menjanjikan apa-apa pon lagi. tapi.... part menipu tu. peh, sentap makan dalam kot.


am i too easy eh sampai deserve to face this? sedih gils! (kesat-kesat air mata patetik. isk)


serius setakat busy takkan tak boleh tolerate. tapi yang side-side busy tuuu yang tak tau nak tolerate camana. tipu perlu kee? perlu eh? ka chat time tu salah??

aku main dengan kata-kata. main dengan defense-mechanism. main dengan emosi. main dengan rasa yang.....

takpelaaa. i try my best. with the hope chat time tu salah kaa apa. anggap ja la depa borak tu semalam. masa dok senggang-senggang time buat keja yang sampai tak dan msg aku. biaq laa.

cuma, tak perlu kot cakap sayang selagi tak dak rasa tu. camana nak tau ada rasa tu? one of it is, tak yah buat benda yang orang tak suka. tipu, sapa suka wey? hm.

dah azan subuh. mati laa AR aku tak siap. isnin ni present. tapi.... harapnya lepas bangun jap gik aku boleh lupakan semua sekali.. aminnnn.

okbai!

nothing much but it's soo soo memory!

Assalamualaikum =)

so this is my CNY holidays almost done. aku tak balik manjung pon dok rumah nenek jee. family aku mai sini sat dua hari, pastu depa balik dah laa. so many hals dekat sana. itu la umi, dok KL je kan senang. rumah nenek dekat, rumah sedara dekat, uia kite dekat, orang tu nak masuk minang pon dekat, tak yah susah-susah. eh? =p

tak buat apa sangat pon cuti ni. selain spend time dengan family, online, tengok tv, makan, tidor. eh masak mana? mesti la tak masak, nenek kesayangan itew ada. nenek dah la rajin. itew tukang makan jelaa.

nenek......

emmm once upon the time, i ever feel jealous with ma cousin. she's very close with nenek. she can spend a day just talking and talking and talking with nenek. jeles mak tau! masa ni, aku study kat pj, matrik situ. weekend aku balik la sini. tapi sebab tak reti nak bukak topik, nak sembang dengan nenek aku jadi pemerhati jelaa. sedih oih time ni. bukan sedih apa, sedih laa dengan nenek sendiri pon tak rapat. isk.

then by the time pass.... i'm getting older. OLDER?? huh. bila boring kat uia aku keja balik sini je. tambah-tambah lepas ada kereta, lagi la rajin balik. dah la rajin balik, rajun jadi driver pulak tuu. selalu drive kan nenek aku, macik aku gik sana-sini. thnak you kancil you are so BERJASA! lama kelamaan we getting closer. da reti sembang-sembang. da reti cerita pasal cinta. pasal kawan. pasal semua... to tell the truth, now... aku lagi reti sembang and sharing dengan nenek dari umi.

umi kan macam dah lama tak jumpa. pastu, kalo jumpa time cuti pon, umi keja. sat ja ada masa. sembang pon kena pilih-pilih tajuk laa. bukan boleh main random saja cerita semua. so..... quite limited topic la nak bersembang sangat. tapi umi suka tanya pasal si awak tu. nenek pulak suka bagi tips. haha


so this holiday, memang dah lepas semua kazen balik, aku tinggal dengan nenek jela. jadual harian? nenek itew suka makan mapley. kata lagi mamaks khenn. so, breakfast gik mapley. dinner gik mapley. rasa nak booked satu table dah kat kedai-kedai tu. hikhik.

pastu nenek itew suka belanja-belanja. ecah nak apa? amik lahh. ahemm! nama lagi ecah, penah pulak dia tak nak apa-apa kan? hehehe.

ok laa. senanya takde motip pon update ni. tengah tunggu mesin berenti nak sidai baju. apa pukul 1 baru sidai baju? hikhik. ok dah bunyi dah tu. can stop now.

okbai! =)

gamba dengan nenek takde pulak. paham la kan laptop gwa baru lepas jahanam. laptop yang ni kosong.... isk! with the najwa ke najla (dorang twin, so i don't know which one. hehe) durong kenduri arwah baru ni.


p/s: i wish nenek dipanjangkan umur, sempat tengok aku kawen, aku ada anak, aku berjaya nak belanja nenek pulak. Allah, make my wish becomes real. aminn. =)

and after all...

Assalamualaikum =)

after a week of internship. jiha said, 'rasa kejap jeee'. gwa masa tu dah jumaat, so... 'aah, macam kejap' but look at my wallet. kejap 8! i don't know what takes so-many-money-in-my-wallet-gone. serious laa don't know.

minyak kereta, rasa tak payah pikir for last week, sebab dorang bagi duit. dorang tu asnisha dengan mek dah. we go to school together everyday. eh lupa jiha bagi sekali. so... just enough la kan.

makan.... mana la makan sangat pon. makan kat kantin tu murah. balik beli kat awe, pastu tido.

shopping.... aaaa aaaa ada satu benda je aku beli. beg. itu pon satu je rm 25 je. sebab rasa sedih la sikit takde beg macam cikgu-cikgu. pastu tengok beg cantik, macam idamanku, so rembat jela. itu pon bukan duit wallet aku, duit wallet moja. duit aku jugak, cuma ada pengasingan. sebabnya, sebab ini lah. selagi aku tau aku ada duit, takde istilah stop membeli.

tapi semalam ada jugak la do some shopping. cousin itew ajak gik jalan tar. mula-mula gwa behave gila beb. even baju jeans yang gwa mengidam berbulan-bulan pon, gwa pandang sepi je kat pasar tu. sekali apa bangang gwa tak tau, sampai muaz gwa nampak blouse 20 ringgit, gwa pegi rembat. dah la menyesal balik warna tu tak hot langsung. tapi gwa kurang menyesal sikit sebab gwa sempat rembat satu kasut sale kat sogo dengan harga 20 ringgit. cantik bebs kasut tu. selesa lagi. eii tak sabar nak pakai. tapi bukan tak sabar nak pegi sekolah. aaaa pendek kata untuk paragraph ini adalah, kalau berjaya tahan nafsu mesti tak ralat sampai ke hari ni. kan?

berbaik kepada duit tadi... sungguh hairan sungguh. mana pergi duit aku?? hahaha. tak payah buat-buat mencari, memang laa kot tak shopping yang major, but i did do some minor-minor shopping. contohnya..... jidah, dila dengan jiha je tau. haha. sumpah till now i em regretting. bak balik 31 ringgit aku!!!! huwahhh.

nasib itew sempat refill duit itew balik. semalam jumpa umi, so... umi nak sikit duit. padahal she just banked in to me 1,300 ringgit for laptop. and i just used 980 jee. should have berapa ringgit tah lebih. tapi manaa? oh ya lupa, itew kan ada beli baju ballet oren tu satu. lupa. lupa. ketuk kepala.

aku kata dah. tah berapa banyak baju laa aku beli dalam seminggu. apa terok sangat ni? isk isk

bulan feb cepat la habis. i don't want to spend too much money on your month!! isk.

tetiba mengantok. apesal tajuk dia gini? apesal entry dia gini pon aku tak tau. padahal aku plan nak merepek benda lain. ah sambung nanti jelaa.

okbai! =)

sudden session

Assalamualaikum =)

tanjat mak tau tetiba tengah i duduk lek-lek sat tadi, tetiba cikgu disiplin tu hantar group of form four students suruh counseling kann. hamboi cikgu.... dah la dalam 10 students, neves i tauu.

tapi i iz try to maintain cool lah. so, what did i do is... ni sudden action gak la. aku teros gik amik borang biodata murid tu, bagi ke dorang. ayat apa aku nak cakap? camana nak approach? apa nak mula? semua lahhh.. terabur-terabur dalam otak aku. itu laa da suruh kan prepare! maleh sangat... kan dah padan muka! fuhh.

oh ya lebih meneveskan i iz, session tu tengah-tengah ruang tamu bilik kaunseling sekolah ni tau. which while me handling the session, the teacher is observing. memang senang buat session, yang jadi susah bila kena perati. neves tauu!

tapi alhamdulillah kot. i managed to conduct the students well. well? hmmm i could say la well kot. tapi tadi iteww kena marah-marah dulu baru budak-budak tu tau senyap. dah la iteww tak reti marah rasa nk nangis jee. nasib tak leleh lagi tauu.

pastu lepas marah, tunjuk garang even nak tergelak baq ang, last-last depa pon senyapp and the session going well. syukurrr...

lot of effort ni nak kena buat for make sure they will change. takpee, i will try. i will try. i will. inshaAllahh... =)

ok lah. nak tulis-tulis semula what have we discuss just now. ini dulu untuk third day practical nih.

okbai! =)

my practical day. =)

Assalamualaikum =)


currently at sekolah. boleh tak kat sekolah nak update blog lagi? boleh aja sih, wireless laju. aku rasa la kan, kalo aku nanti pegi sekolah pon, mesti aku rajin gila update blog kalo free. sebab after two school i went, both of them have the super laju wireless in counseling room. mau tak best? hikhik.

semalam first day, nothing much pon. we came settle few things and supposed to come again on evening. but we got the information need to attend the briefing with dr haniza so going back laa on 2.10 pm. best gils! so left the school early and.. all i could say is, HEAVEN BAQ ANGG! =)


then this is the second day. emmm so far tak dak buat apa sangat lah pon. makin tak dak keja, makin lambat laa kan rasa masa berjalan. makin lambat masa berjalan, makin lambat laa aku rasa masa nak balik. pastu rasa bosan semua lah. isk isk.

so far tak jumpa lagi laa students. relief class pon xde lagi. so... rehat-rehat aja laaa. eh salah-salah tadi baru jumpa satu client. problem.... boleh ka cerita sini? mesti lah takk! hikhik.

emm, emmm......

tah tak dak apa sangat lah nak cerita pon. basically best lah. apa la yang tak best. makanan murah. emmm student pon best. masalah... so far takde lagi. mohon takde sampai ke sudah laa. aminnn. =)


dah la. tak tau nak kata apa dah. merepek sesat barat dah ni. okbai! ;)

it almost start! =)

Assalamualaikum =)

currently at IIUM. aku balik awal sikit kali ni. satunya sebab birthday aunnie (my cousin daughter aaa, counted as my anak sedara jugak lah kan?). pastu sebab si awak merengek-rengek. LOL. pastu sebab laptop itew yang silver omey omey tu buat hal. pi rosak motherboard teros sampai langsung tak leh on. sedih sey masa tak dak laptop tu. rasa macam separuh nyawaku gone. goneee. goneee. itew sampai nangis tau. mujur ada awak. kihkih.

and alhamdulillah laa. having umi and abi in my life really make my nyawa yang separuh pergi tu balik semula. i got a new laptop. acer gaks, aspire one. eh ni netbook jek. senang, kecik bleh bawak sana sini. comel lagi, merah-merah gituuu. LOVE! sungguh. hik hik ni tengah update guna beliau laa ni. umi, abi sungguh thank you very much! -malas lah nak tangkap gambo. bukan ada reader pon, aku tulis ni sebab nanti orang tanya bila beli, ni la reference aku. tau saja la kan, memory aku 1GB jek. masuk yang baru, yang lama kena delete which is i will forget everything. so semadikan lah...

tapi laptop silver, amanlah kau di sana. i left moja sticker on that laptop. cis lupa amik! sobs.

apa lagi nak cerita? oh ya tajuk...


alaaa so esok benda yang aku tak tunggu-tunggu tu pon datang. semak tahu?

esok i'm going to be as somebody new. with the 'cikgu' title on my shoulder. alaa pektikal je, tapi ya you know i'm not really good with it. dengan preparation pon aku rasa suam-suam air panas je. bukan suam-suam kot, macam tak prepare. alahaiii....

apa yang nak kena prepare sepatutnya??

aaaaaa, kalo aku la kan, aku kena prepare be professional. be professional like, ya i'm a teacher and you the student. bukan nak making gap ka apa, but just small gap to gain respect. alaaa respect.. ni hat payah sekali nih. camana nak gain respect without using strictness? fierce? position? susah! tapi few of my classmate can do this well. dorang just use the sumpah-halus-gila-suara but the students can respect them well. hebat wey! i iz impress. tapi camana? camana? okay gugel eh malam ni. -homework.

itu satu hal. hal kedua tahukah anda yang bahasa saya ni tak upgrade-upgrade? makna kata, patutnya orang di umur saya, yang perlu mendidik anak bangsa, perlulah guna kan struktur bahasa yang cantik, halus dan sedap didengar. but me? ouch! bukan tak boleh, bolehhh. tapi masih belom cantik bahasaya. ini juga skill yang i need to learn more. learn mende esok dah masanya. Allah, risaunya. mohon esok tak yah relief class. aminnn. oh ya, ada ja cikgu yang bahasa dia biasa-biasa saja. bukan hebat tahap gila. cikgu lama-lama je yang memang bahasa sedap. tapi dorang tu, pandai split kan personality dorang. macam... ya pandai tuko-tuko perkataan while talking. but me?? isk isk. -YOU CAN DO IT! kata capslock. fuhh.


hal-hal lain adalah theory counseling, skills in that. mana reflection, confrontation, apa lagi? tengok tak ingat. masya-Allah... isk isk. dah la kalo jadi kaunselor memang tak susah macam cikgu math ka apa. sebab mana ada silibus. tapi we must prepare. tau prepare apa? prepare word construction dalam otak banyak-banyak. bcs everything that come up in front of us is really unpredictable. tetiba ada budak kena tumbuk, tetiba ada parent datang, tiba-tiba keajaipan terjadi.... mihmih. in short, must prepare with any living skill that we know. living skill is too subjective, sapa nak ajar? takdeee. carik sendiri. direct, indirect find it by your own.

pastu..... knowledge about test segala test dalam kaunseling tuu. alahai...... menakutkan hokayy! SDS je dah lupa. apa tah lagi yang lain-lain. takpe boleh. boleh. boleh.

camana cikgu kausneling sekolah tu esok? ok ka, dak ka.. wah, that's too scary. masa ni pon kena la manis mulut. kena be presentable. bcs, they goig to be our close-workmate. so.... impression apa nak bagi ke dorang? apa work attitude nak kena tunjuk? at least prepare laa a theory that you know well. sebab kan, macam last practical tu, tetiba dorang tanya, awak prefer theory apa? eh sudahhh! so kalo tak prepare, bukan saja malukan diri sendiri, malu kan UIA sekali gus lecturer jugak. so.... BE PREPARE!


banyak lagi scariest things yang ada. tapi takpee la. prepare je everything! yang penting sekali impression orang ke kita laaa. by the time jejak ja kaki dalam pagar sekolah, how we want they see us. HOW? ikut-ikut balik apa kata dr sherkawi while FSP hari tu...

apa panjang sangat ni? banyak lagi nak bebel. kenangan la nanti bila dah habis belaja. bila nak posting ka... hikhik. tapi... dah malas la pulak.

in short, do the best la for everything! inshaAllah okay semua sekali. amin. amin. amin.

pray for me. oh ya, this is my last semester. inshaAllah.. =)

okbai!



p/s: tak best sikit senanya taip pakai laptop ni. belom biasa lagi la ni kot.  =)