comfort zone.

Assalamualaikum =)

haiii!! did you follow the @terfaktab kat twitter? do follow them, sebab you may get lots of JK (jiwa kacau) answers, stupid-simple-prinsip in love or whatever, and..... matured style of love i could say. apa tak payah baca dah tau? tau, tau ampaa hebat, aku ja yang baru nak menapak ta teh, ta teh! ;(

so, comfort zone.....

this term i got from #terfaktab gak sebenarnya. someone asked them, "kenapa gf saya suka merajuk?" (lebih kurang lah). jawapan, "sebab korang dah move to comfort zone" (lebih kurang juga, takkan nak hafal terfaktab pulak kan? pft.)

and.... yes this make sense! aku pon rasa macam tu laaa. aku sendiri lah, orang yang aku senang gils nak merajuk is or no no are my family. pantang tak dapat sikit je apa aku nak, teros hentak-hentak kaki atas carpet, sebab kalo tak atas carpet kaki aku sakit satu hal, pastu kang sedih pulak dorang tengok aku kurang ajar. dengan adik-adik aku lagi lahhh. asyik nak menang, kalah merajuk. sebab apa? sebab aku tau, air yang dicincang takkan putus. i know i will be with them forever, and they too. so no wonder lah, kalo lepas balik dari rumah tu dia macam geds sikit. bukan geds apa, dia macam... emm gian diberi kasih-sayang? er.

orang kedua yang aku suka gils merajuk is, err are, kawan-kawan. yang ni pon..... aku pikir gak awat masa first sem aku gila boleh tahan whatever they do, sekarang macam susah sangat nak tahan? so come to the point, it's comfort zone. aku tau they need me and i need them too. so..... sebab tu lah. even i know merajuk semua tu buat dorang annoyed, still can't stop that. hey, isn't it make us more closer gak? isn't it?

orang seterusnya adalah.... emmm hatimanis kot. LOL. ini paling buat aku tersedar sekali. kira-kira sekarang dah setahun lebih la kiteorang KAWAN. dulu kan, kalo dia tak text, hati paneh tu wajib, tapi bila dia text cool dia senang jek. sekarang??? hahahaha. senang jugak, cuma dia macam ada laa silent therapy sikit. hiks! sebab we getting closer and i feel more comfortable with you and wish you too. XD

so bagi aku, dalam comfort zone ni laa measurement to success or failure in one relationship tu. masa nih akan lebih kenal each other. masa ni dapat tengok yang zahir and batin (oih, dalam hati count as batin jugak yer). masa ni boleh tengok mana ikhlas, mana tak. masa ni boleh tengok cara marah yang betol or main-main. SEMUA LAHH!

at this stage, kalo rasa can't bear, i would like to suggest or.... giving my personal opinion that just leave it behind. emm, part family tu can't la leave behind. alaa, mana ada family yang tak boleh terima family members dia kan? tapi untuk kawan dan hatimanis tu.

why leave it behind? bcs, what else to be wait? while you know them at the surface lah boleh blah je kalo tak tahan, but if more deeper? tak ke lagi sedih and terkesan?

perhubungan bukan bahan eksperimen, tapi kalo hipotesis dan konklusi daripada eksperimen tu dapat menyelamatkan masalah hati runsing+kecewa+tak tabah semua tu, why can't we used it kan? we not talking about a day relationship, it's a longggggggg relationship.

so use brain while going through with it. okay?

alamak dah nak almost 6am, nak balik! cemuih dah aih kat mcd ni lama-lama. tak dan nak conclude. but understood kan? okbai!

ain't no joke!

Assalamualaikum =)

MasyaAllah maleh baq ang nak balik uia. kalo aku orang KL kan best. rasa mood cam ni lepak rumah, ada keja balik sat then balik rumah. mak oih, gila best! tapi masa tu aku la orang yang paling teruk sebab, who's doing the job or homework while at home kan? gila maleh nak mamps kalo kat rumah. rasa macam baby, makan dijemput, mandi diingat, semayang dikejut, semua lahhh! tu yang jadi macam kurang tanggungjawab tu. hehe.

tanggungjawap... talking about this...

now i am very sure, yang ungkapan kahwin-kahwin yang meiniti di mulut we'ols is not the serious thing. aku dah sedar, senanya, memang aku bajet dari kecik (tipu, tipu), nak kahwin umur 25 cam tu. tapi BILA AKU MASUK UIA....

all changed! -sebabnya depa sini memang stok kawen awai. ada senior penah habaq dulu, nanti hang rasa laa pengalaman kemaruk nak kawen. ni masa matrik, tengok dia pesan kemain awai. mula-mula macam, eh helllo kahwin.... nanti la aku pikir. tak terpikir langsung time tu, nak belaja dulu, nak habiskan degree dulu. itu je pikir, mulus beb otak time nih. haha

sampai first year degree, sorang kahwin. cool lah dia memang deserve it. dua orang kahwin, emm memang kena kawin awal dia nih, nampak motherly sangat. tiga kawin, panas sikit bontot. empat, lima, enam, tujuh.... HEY AKU NAK GAKK!

effect from this lah, tetiba rasa nak pilih laki yang sekian sekian. yang serius macam ni macam tu. tambah lagi dengan quote kenal-kahwin yang ada kat facebook. kemain lah kan, emosi la aok yang tak laku-laku nih.

tapi bila sebut umur balik, 23. ehh muda lagik!!! sungguh muda lagi. masak pon tak reti. apetah lagi buat durian crepe yang-dikatakan-senang-tapi-susah-nak-mampos! oh sungguh geram. i swear, not so swear la, aku tak mau buat dah benda tu. kalo teringin gila baru aku beli. insapp beb. insapp!

balik kepada topik kita. aaaaa..... oh ya, we are just young. what so rush eh? kalo yang dah berjodoh tu, ok la, alhamdulillah la. yang tak berjodoh lagik?

tak yah JK sangat. tak yah nak putus semata sebab tu. tak yah nak compare bf dia sayang dia lebih asuk minang etc etc. -aku kadang-kadang (ke selalu awak?) buat nih. muahahaha.

derrr, mana tak JK, semorang kat keliling kawen macam tukaq baju. tampak senang. tapi bila sebut satu-satu, kupas pelan-pelan, telan ayaq liuq neutral rasa asid. fuhh. tapi jujur laa, aku nak kawen sangat sebab takut i'm the last one! hahaha.

tapi, takpeeee.. long way to go. rezeki orang masing-masing. perjalanan hidup pon berbeza-beza. so, be cool with it dah la. -ni ajar diri sendiri nih.

baca quote nih yer para JK sekalian....

EXPECT NOTHING, ACCEPT EVERYTHING. 

tapi kan... banyak lagi nak tulis ni rasanya, tapi esok nak drive pulang ke kotaraya kuuuuu pulak, baik tido.

okbai! =)


p/s: tu la sapa suruh sweet-sweet kejap malam ni, kan aku dah mengarot buat entry kawen-kawen. lol! =p

p/s ke-2: kat mana sesuainya tajuk tu? err.

jadi diri sendiri.

Assalamualaikum =)

aok gelak macam orang lain, jalan macam orang lain, life style macam orang lain, aok bahagia ka? kalo yes, keep that up!

but for me, it's damn diffucult. why? i'm not be myself, why must i'm be happy with that? it's kind of susah okay nak be orang lain.

contoh simple, suara macam syura, tetiba pegi karok ko nak tuka kotak suara jadi siti nurhaliza. susah hokay! part tarik-tarik tu wajib terabur. end up orang yang pandai nyanyi pandang pelik, bahagia kah itu? but, give a shit to people yang care pasal suara orang lain dalam tempat karok! bhai, kat karok hokay, bukan audition AF! sukati mak la nak suara cemana pon. tak gitu?

be someone else nih satunya susah, duanya you look like the real faker! dia macam even kau gelak pon nampak tak best, kau cakap nampak pelik, everything!! when you are not you, people are not interested to you too! -haa kau aku dah memandai dah buat ayat tak betol sendiri. ahem!

tak salah nak admire orang. sukati kau la nak suka cara farahdeeba bagi talk pon. sukati kau laa nak meleleh ayaq liuq tengok prof muhaya bercakap. BUT, don't just simply take it and pretend as it your style. obviously, people recognize it and it's boringggg! take good side on it, adapt it with yours. believe me you look hot plus new brand produce! =)

dulu an, itew penah masuk forum. sampai peringkat daerah tak silap kalah. sebab the jury said, i em photocopying the ustajah baayah ke mashitah. no remember. but one of them lah. sebab tu lah, sebab tuu.... jangan jadi mereka, jadi kita!

itu part cakap kat depan. same goes to while menjadi kawan. jadi je diri kita. kalo kita kaki sentap, jadi jela kaki sentap. cuma jangan lah melampau. kalo kau kaki tinggal-girlfriends-bila-ada-boyfriend jadi jela macam tu pon. tegok ja la sapa boleh kawan dengan kau. kalo orang tu blah, meaning that dia tak tahan. kau tak yah lah nak expect dia boleh terima kau. dah kau ada cara hidup yang berbeza. nasib lah kan?

dah la malas nak conclude ka apa. tetiba rasa lapar, nak pegi makan. paham la apa gist dia. and baiii! =)

what will be my next?

Assalamualaikum =)

betol kata orang tua-tua. life begin at 25. but for me my real life begin start Jan, 2013. why?

bcs, at that year i'm going to finish my study. tau tak cemana rasa nak habis study tu? macam ni rasa dia... duduk dalam kelas time belaja rasa nak cium kerusi meja semua. sebab this gonna be my last semester in cls, next sem internship than habis. so cium, sebab lepas ni tak tau rajin ke tak nak duduk as student macam ni lagi. but hopefully rajin lahh. aminnn...

lepas tu, asyik terpikir-pikir sapa aku lepas nih? siapa aku lepas nih? a HR worker? counselor? teacher? businesswoman? sungguh that is so scaryyyy!! what if lepas berbulan-bulan habis belajar pon tak keja-keja? what if, bila dah kerja tak dapat perform? what if... and all.... Ya Allah rasa nih sangat distracted the whole life tau. dia macam tak sabar sangat-sangat nak tempuh. tapi dalam tak sabar tu nervous dia..... MAHA KUAT!

currently a student. 2012. siapa saya lepas nih.....

itu pasal kerja dan belajar. pasal menyempurnakan agama pulak.... menyempurnakan agam nih kahwin lah. hehehe.

what if semorang dah kawin, only me not. masa tu nak pegi wedding member yang jauh-jauh macam mana, sapa nak teman? lepas tu, sapa je yang ada nak baca kisah hidup tak laku aku nih. ohhh! and tak laku sampai tua???? ohmakkkkk!! mintak simpang Allahh. temukan aku dengan seorang yang serious, yang sudi jadikan aku teman hidup.. aminnn. aminnn... (tau tak this is not the fake doa? i mean it! i em to scared!!!)

are we together? i hope so. aminnn. aminnn. harap awak juge begitu. ;)

tak sabar nak letak duit dalam envelop, pastu balik rumah salam umi, salam abi bagi duit. lepas tu call adik kat u tanya ada duit tak? lepas tu, bawak cousin, bawak adik jalan-jalan, main bowling, makan-makan. TIME, please berjalan pantas dan side on me! pelisss...

then lepak dengan kawan-kawan yang masa tu semua dah bekerja. tak payah tong-tong tapi macam ni, ok aku payung makan-jiha. ok aku payung karok (eh sampai tua ke nak karok nih?? muahaha)-alya. ok aku payung.... shopping!- hah and umu. err aku payungkan korang di bawah hujan je boleh? wah takkan lah member nak payung shopping pulak kan? kah kah. masa ni nak jumpa mesti bukan hari-hari dah. sekali-sekala je jumpa..... korang, pelis jangan buat reason laki aku suruh balik cepat semua tu tauu. at least we must find a day in a month to lepak together! eiii macam mana la muka masing-masing masa tu...

susah tau tak nak cari gambo latest we ols! berpoluh dahi den korek-korek folder lama. tak silap this is 2011 pict kot. ye ke? not sure!

tadi takde alya. kena ada alya gak! kan dah kata karok ni kewajipan we ols tiga! dia macam lepas submit assignment je karok. haha.

lagi tak sabar bila raya...... nanti datang rumah ampaa clsmate, roommates bawak anak masing-masing. but please don't compare-compare grade anak-anak kita tau kawan-kawan. sebab nanti punca kita rasa tak senang nak lepak sama lagi. masa tu suami-suami kite buat apa yer..... hmmm.

this is sometimes our conversation while lepaking, naik kereta, jogging, makan. hahaha see, girlfriends sangat best hokayy! never lost point to chat. boyfriend.... hmphh, sometimes it has!

ini belom lagi khayalan nak bercuti. mana tim? korea yer?? jidah kata pegi umrah dulu. okayy! haha. harap masa tu kita dah ada banyak duit kan korang? masa tu dila takde lah kedekut nak spend duit. mesti dia belanja kita itu ini! yeay. can't waitttt!!! -Ya Allah, makbulkan lah semua impian kami ya Allah... =)

while shopping raya 2012. penat baq hangg! next year.. kita shopping sama-sama lagi tak korang rasa?? =(

folder gambo ni cakap birtday jidah. tapi tak sure birthday tahun bila. take it as this year la kot. sebab ni camera corby. corby tu tak silap aku dalam this year la jugak. so this is dila! my loyal and best alarm clock everrr!

how i'm glad for having you guys in my life. terselisih faham. tersakit hati. terbengang bangang. semua tu rencah bahagia kita! ecewahhh.

sebenarnya kan korang, i em worried and sad. cemana aku nanti lepas korang dah takde bersama. dila takde nak kejutkan subuh. tim dengan jidah takde nak bisingkan bilik. alya takde nak remind everything. jiha rakan subahat dah takde nak buat benda baik dan jahat. umu and hah dah takde nak kongsi rahsia kebahagiaan bersama ahem-ahem, masak, macam-macam lah. belom lagi classmate yang best, yang buat aku yang malas ni rasa nak pegi kelas sebab nak jumpa dorang!

ya Allah..... masa depan tu sangat lah menakutkan. gelap, sikit cahaya pon tak nampak. tapi i em preparing with everything i can for it. sesungguhnya Kau maha mengetahui, maha menentukan. tentukan lah segalanya buat aku dan rakan-rakanku yang terbaik, yang indah seindah ciptaan-Mu ya Allah.. lancarkan segalanya perjalanan hidup kami. Amin ya Rabbb... =)

okbai!


p/s: one day, bila semua nih dah tercapai, aku akan senyum simpul-simpul baca semua nih. 

KIDZANIA

Assalamualaikum =)

sampai terpaksa buat entry nih. that's show how serious i em teruja untuk tempat nih. semalam, aku masuk kat satu blog akak nih, kak elly lah kot sebab nama dia elly in wonderland. dia cerita pasal pegi kidzania dengan anak-anak dia yang cute dua orang tu..

since read that, aku start google, mana KIDZANIA nih, cemana nak pegi sana, entrance fee berapa. pastu aku pikir... tapi nak ajak sapa? muahahaha. pastu bajet tak nak kecik pulak kan nak pegi tu.. oh this is so sad.

tetiba nak cecepat kawin, nak ada anak nak bawak pegi sini. -tapi mana mungkin. lambat lagi hokayyy. takkan nak kawin semata-mata sebab KIDZANIA je? helllooo...

tapi takpe. aku kan banyak cousin kecik-kecik lagi. anak sedara sepupu ada jugak. nanti la aku dah keja, dah stable betol-betol, aku nak bawak dorang. eiiii tak sabar!

cepat lah grad, cepatlah grad! lepas tu cepat lah dapat kerja yang ok... aminnnn... ;)


pastu kan, dah tau semua tu lambat lagi, aku pon suggest kat Gemilangians. sebab it's too beneficial wa cakap lu. dari pegi legoland bayaq mahal got nothing, better pi sini. yer dak?

dulu dalam kelas career counseling kot, lecturer aku bukak video pasal education system in US. the kids there had been exposed to the real work setting since kindergarten. ada la video dak tu jadi posmen. MasyaAllah that's so cute!

so, bila Malaysia ada benda macam nih, gila excited aku! perlu wey perlu... baru lah boleh tingkatkan mutu pekerja-pekerja kat Malaysia.

dah kenapa mutu pekerja tetiba nih? ok macam nih...

sekarang, Malaysian, main hentam je kerja apa pon. yang ala-ala kena dengan qualification, yang rasa gaji dia sedap. bukannya ikot apa minat dia. ada yang cakap, minat boleh pupuk. tapi tak semua boleh dipupuk minatnya. kerja yag kita buat, kalo tak kena dengan value yang kita ada that's too suck hokay!

bayangkan, kau takde value artistic pon, tetiba kau kena design itu ini, kena draw itu ini. boleh lah survive dapat gaji bulan-bulan semua, tapi sementara survive tu...

ada kang yang balik rumah pukul anak, marah bini, tak sempat balik kampung, semua lah. sebab? kerja yang asalnya biasa dan mampu buat oleh orang yang memang minat dilakukan oleh orang yang terpaksa buat.

paham ke aku cakap nih? cuba pahamkan....

contoh lain, orang yang takde value social tetiba suruh jadi cikgu, doktor, social worker, etc-etc. memang takkan boleh! sebab dia takde value tu. tu yang jadi ada orang pegi bank kena maki, masuk ofis kena maki, semua lah. sebabnya.... orang yang dok kat front desk ofis tu minat dia kat benda lain, sekali kena entertain orang. memang panas lah kan dia. kena pulak buat benda yang dia tak suka tu seumur hidup. ohmakaiii lagi lah semak kepala je tiap hari.


jadi bila ada exposure benda-benda yang macam ni dari kecik, so budak tu boleh pilih apa minat dia. since that, dia boleh start develop minat dia dari kecik. contoh, dia rasa dia minat jadi doktor, so parent dia boleh la belikan buku-buku yang ala kedoktoran, cd cartoon yang more on that part, and all. so, bila besar memang dia akan perform well dalam bidang kedoktoran and jadi doktor yang ikhlas tanpa ada rasa terpaksa. patient selamat, doktor pon selamat. tak gitu??

errr panjang pulak ceramah aku. all and all dalam counseling pon, aku memang minat lebih kat career punya hal. sebab aku rasa career nih one of the main factor of everything. dalam family institution pon, career jugak penting.

kalo career diperati elok-elok, macam-macam boleh jadi. anak-anak jadi tak ketahuan hala, cerai-berai, ibadat kat Allah pon tah macam mana, pendek kata memang penting! sangat penting!

ok lah. itu saja pasal KIDZANIA. nak ada anak. cepatlah ajak aku kawen. muahahaha. jokes.

okbai! =)

KBIG 2012 =)

Assalamualaikum =)

i was in the middle of developing my lesson plan, and suddenly.... stuck! stuck bcs, i can't think any of the story related with culture shock. why culture shock? surprise, surprise. (sebut macam kak lisa surihani kau kat MLM tu) ;p

currently at home, but.... yeah still need to do the homework. lesson plan. this Monday, turn to become one of my big day jugak lah. bcs, my turn to do the method teaching. ahem! sementara the others family members are not here yet, tak kacau, tak ajak borak, better do this. sementara ada mood. kang dah start keluar, memang tak buat dah la kan.

apa nih, tajuk KBIG? mana? mana?

okayyyy.....

K.B.I.G is Kem Bina Insan Guru. that's one of the compulsory camp for the teachers in IIUM, i'm not sure about the others IPG or UNI. But my university, MUST join this. i'm not in a mood at first bcs, the date was delayed many times you know. October, November, end up December. dari abang Ummu tu nak nikah sampai nak buat kenduri sambut menantu, baru la KBIG nih become real.

kata blog girlfriends kan? haa, tepek gambo girlfriends dulu lah.

BUT, i em so excited! bcs, dah lama tak rasa join program yang kita join as participants and just follow the tentative, module, etc-etc. normally, join program mesti kena jadi committee. which, before the program je dah penat kepala otak, semasa program penat, selepas pon penat. but this time, pegi jek. ikot je apa list barang tu cakap.

ahem, of course la i Google-google dulu kan tempat nih cane, selesa ke tak, weather dia cane. takkan nak pergi tanpa bersedia, buat tak cukup itu ini tak nayo den?

so, Jumaat, as early as 8AM we ols berangkat dari edu. sampai around 12PM kot. met pok nik yang super funny which change my first impression spontaneously. lepas tu sesi masuk bilik. dia bebaskan jugak ahli bilik, tambah best! cuma yang tak best is MASAK SENDIRI. ada berenti kat R&R Temerloh makan-makan. aku yang sombong bajet nak makan chalet nih, siap tak makan sebab selalu join program yang kat chalet ke hotel ke makan mesti sedap. saving space la kan nak makan sedap. sekali kau......

the cooking crew! see, see... busy nak mampps masing-masing. but this is the most memorable moment told chu!

but after all, till the last day, the cooking part is most memorable lah. mana tak memo, gain lots and lots experience. tak experience yang direct pon yang indirect. like, mesti pandai masak, mesti kena expert! sebab nanti pergi rumah mak mentua, cane nak bawak diri? ohhh. that's too scary! but not so bad, at the end of the day, dah reti potong ayam. dah reti kot masak campak-campak macam dorang. tengok dorang masak campak-campak jek sedap jugak. but never practice this yet, tapi rasanya boleh kot.

while the survival cooking moment. survival habis time nih. ok continue nanti. nih special moment habis la cakap lu.

emmm...... so petang tu start la segala aktiviti! takde yang tak awesome lah. semua awesome! and..... hahahaha.

there is one activity that i can't even forget. dia ala-ala flying fox, tapi dia kena jalan. walking fox. ada ke? tapi itu lah. aku meniti tali tu dengan jiha. baru tiga empat langkah, aku mintak patah balik tapi....... tak dibenarkan. Masya-Allahhh... along the titian tu, aku diam, senyap tak kata apa. jiha dok buat lawak pon aku senyap jek. malas layan. takot wey! sumpah takot!!! takot satu, penat dia tak payah cakap la kan. kalo penat berkayak, ada Hah tolong kayuhkan, tapi kalo penat meniti tu???

banyak kali aku ulang rasa nak lepas tangan, rasa nak pengsan, BUT... till the finishing point i em able to finish it! masa tu... nak mengalir air mata. bukan sebab penat, eh sebab penat jugak, tapi sebab terlalu tak sangka. see, kadang-kadang kita selalu underestimate diri kita. padahal we can do it. tapi suka give up tengah jalan. serius ini yang aku rasa. so, balik tu macam well-motivated la sikit! so for the LE 4000, for sure i won't give up! i won't! i won't! madam, how dare you? isk. isk.

apa nih? hahaha. ok sambung balik....

emmm, we had the chance to design and do the replica. ahem, masa nih, rasa bertuah jugak la. selalu dengar mr. M2S tu je dok cerita pok pek pasal design, but on that day..... i had a chance! yeay. pastu my group send me as the representative for present the mosque, oh ya our group we design the mosque. the next day, invent the terompah. this on pon is quite best, but pity me. sampai second day je Ella the rockers to masuk dalam diri. suara hilang, and.... yaaa all i can do is, keje belakang tabir. takpela! penting jugak apa? haha.

the upper view of our mosque replica! isn't it awesome??? group mates, y'al are so awesome!!! love, love, love.

the module and games... serius best! i wish i will never forget them. how precious they are! kau ada ke cara cemana nak mengubah orang yang gila bapak ketegaq jadi punctual? pok nik buat senang je. 'saya kecewa sangat-sangat dengan awak. blahblah....' (err blahblahblah nih not too long lah) the next day, the boys in my group yang ingatkan kiteorang, the girls datang awal and be punctual! mak oih, masa ni aku teros nampak how effective the 'freedom-in-control' can shape the teen. err teen ke adult yer we ols nih? confuse. arghh!

the group mates yang awesome tu! no kidding they really are!! masing-masing kan hebat and ada chemistry yang tak payah cakap pon boleh paham. like, kalo dah tengok orang lain busy masak, ada je yang tolong hidupkan api, cari kayu api, bawak pelam, kelapa, basuh pinggan. pendek kata, saling paham. tak payah masam muka, tak payah benci muntah. guys, i missed our team works! dengan ada hot mommy yang pandai masak campak-campak, ada ayah, ada gosip! ahemm. BEST!

sunburn yang ala negro pon boleh jugak nih. mujur 4 hari je, kalo extend seminggu..... rasa pakai spek hitam je nanti tengok muka member-member sendiri. =)

sekali je pok nik marah, not marah just bebel-bebel manja, teros masalah timing selesai. tak pakai wisel. tak pakai siren. on 3PM, semua ready. on 6AM semua ready. peh. peh. sampai aku yang selalunya take 5 or few minutes after the time pon berubah jugak. fuhh.

sebab tu environment sangat mempengaruhi. you stay with the people yang memang solat awal waktu, automatically you will do the same. stay with people yang punctual, same goes to you.

ok lah. nak tengok umi buat apa tu. bunyi blender. lesson plan... will continue next time! err tonight la kot. orang tu kan busy gila! yela submission dia dah dekat. dulu masa submission nih dia hilang seminggu laa ni mujuq ada jugak kadang-kadang tu. but isokayy! we are getting older. kalo tak message bukan makna tak ingat kan? let's find the free time later on. lama tak naik train, tak makan lama-lama, tak buat dialog orang-orang lalu-lalang.... yeah do all the dating stuff. nanti lah lepas final exam. kot. ;)

errr FSP is coming! seems like i need a new mood to start all over this. hmphh. hmphh. cheer up please.... =)

okbai!


p/s: pictures... credit to Marizal Manan and my BB yang lopeks! harap lepas ni ada lagi mood nak sambung cerita pasal each module in detail. untuk kenangan sendiri. inshaAllah... =)

called yourself as friend?

Assalamualaikum =)

breath in, breath out. cool. cool. cool. -ulang ribu kali bebs dari pagi tadi.

orang kata kalau nak tau mana kawan betol, mana kawan tak, cari masa susah. due to, ALHAMDULILLAH, masa susah aku jarang-jarang, so susah la kan nak cari mana kawan betol and mana tak.

and now, tak la susah mana pon. sikit je la. tapi aku nampak laa sikit. apela at least reply lah message. bcs by the time the sistaa asked me to help, you are the first person i count in to make all of clients are six. but...

so sad lah kan....

but lucky me, still few people and friends around me. who can always help me out. be my chingu, but yes, i always see you as my important but today....

takpe lah. aku pon kadang-kadang buat orang jugak. cuma.... bukan kawan sendiri lah yang aku buat cam tu. tapi i know, Allah mesti siapkan hikmah behind this. inshaAllah...

told chu, sometimes conflict is helping! with the hopes ME , absolutely , and you will be rational and think about this and find lesson thru this.

even family is so damn important, friends can't be excluded. bcs, no matter how little function of his / her still, you need it. but isokay lah if you think not , just live well ya!

few minutes left. still....  =(

okay Alya save me! can't deny Alya baik. but.... we have the very very same pattern of think, accepting, emm i could say value. eh , eh tapi Alya tu cermat, perfect buat keja, talented and all. aku... hahaha. tak la hebat cam tu. so , we can't be so closed. boleh, but not really. not really ke? nope, nope just always bercanggah lah. for benda-benda tak berfaedah boleh lepak sama semua. for works and serious matter.... noramlly not. bila tah nak improve. nak grad dah nih. adehh. ;(

ok so just girlfriends story.

standard lah terasa hati sepatah dua. kalau tak terasa bosan weh. nanti lepak tak tau nak bahan sapa. plus, standard lah kalau korang bahan aku belakang or depan aku. aku halal kan. muahaha. sebab sometimes i'm doing the same. but just for fun, no hard or deep feeling pon. yang pasti bila jumpa, bila ok we can just laugh and all. isn't taht awesome?

ok girlfriends, thank you and bai! ;)

heyahhh!

Assalamualaikum ;)


wit wit. setelah berhempas tak pulas-pulas, critics siap.group mates, if korang ada terbaca nih, i em sorry sangat-sangat, sebab lewat hantaq assignment kita. sorry sangat-sangat. few things occurred, pastu edit sikit-sikit, baru lah siap and sent. korang cool kan? plis be cool.. ok tak payah lebih-lebih ngat update, depa tak baca pon konpemm!

bukan ada apa sangat pon nih nak update. ada senanya. i wanna told about my crazy brain saw the extremist of fareeda tudung last weekend, but.... umph, it required me to write the kind of long story. so, esok la pulak kot. jika rajin. hiks!

orang kalau cantik suka cakap, dia tak cantik. isk isk kenapa ah begitu? tapi nak macam mana lagi kan? takkan nak cakap, 'haaa, memang cantik pon! i born to have this.' eh melampau sangat. sebab tu dorang asyik cakap, 'eh biasa je.' mungkin dalam hati la kot dorang cakap Alhamdulillah....

tapi siapa tak nak cantik? habaq mai sat? budak kecik pon aku tala lipstik kat bibir depa, teros juih mulut nak jugak. itu yang cara tak pikiaq nak kawen apa lagi. orng yang dah pikir macam umuq-umuq aku nih? lagi laa wajib nak cantik. kan?

errr. aku terpandang sat tadi ada orang dok balah-balah kat facebook. 'hang makin lawa na la ni..' 'eh hang lawa lagik..' 'eh mana aku boleh lawan hang. hang hebat lagik.' 'ish merepek, hang menang, aku ni apa sangat...' kang aku masuk campur kang, 'DUA, DUA PON TAK LAWA, AKU JE PALING LAWA.' kah kah. tak yah nak gadoh-gadoh sangat la aih. semua pon lawa. lawa kan subjektif. =)

lepas ni aku plan nak pakai safi rania gold lah. macam dah tertua sikit. isk isk. bukan nak lawa pon, nak hilangkan mana-mana bahagian yang dah berkedut. it's needed okay! tak retis pon kena jugak sebab.... cantik membentuk confident diri. but again, cantik tu subjektif. =)

macik aku kata kecik-kecik aku baby yang cantik. sampai orang stop nak tengok aku. muahaha. ish kenapa pi besaq tak tau. kalo dak, sampai laa orang dok stop tengok aku pastu baby lain cemburu. niat nak keji je, patut laa dah hilang nikmat tu. muehehe. ;p

ok lah. apa tah mengarut nih. ala esok dah kena pi balik kelas LE. potong ngat aih madam nih. tadi pon dah kena pi kelas 830 balik. and i em the third who enter the class. kembang sat rasa, jarang cam tu. selalu 1030 baru sampai. hiks hiks. esok... moga berjaya!

okbai!

me with the few of fareeda fanatics. culture shock wey! hahaha.

conflicts isn't a stupid things

Assalamualaikum =)

tell me who ever be in relationship without conflict? even a kid at home with a mom pon would have conflict. at this age, i start to realize, none of the conflict is stupid IF...

- you think about it and get some lesson from it
- say sorry with brain or... full of realization lah.
- promise for do not make the same mistakes that lead to the same conflict again.

don't be too give up if you keep having conflict with your friends. just again, do learn something from it.

plus, don't be too sad lah, if you can't satisfied you friend. that's nothing pon. don't think too much. bcs, the real girlfriends don't give a damn to the small-little hurts!

BUT, DON'T BACK STABBED YOUR FRIEND, then say sorry as nothing happen. back stabbing... err who cool with it?

do have conflict as a way to know your friend more and more.

ok i need to stop. someone eating durian behind me! the smell is too.............. i want some sisters! can i? ok segan nak cakap, maka cium bau ja la. sobss! oh ya, durian crebe.. tak lah sedap mana. the real durian lagi sedap! nyumahh.

okbai!

when people around you is soo nice!

Assalamualaikum =)

this is Tuesday. i em like a primary or secondary students. having a short school holiday with cousin, parents, sibling, emm family lah pendek kata. coincidentally, kelas tetiba cancel. so..... marilah duduk lepak-lepak, sambil makan kek gula hangus, tengok sinetron dengan macik-macik.

BEST WOIH!

pastu tengok laptop kat belakang kosong, mari lah ambil chance untuk apdate blog girlfriends ni kejap. laptop kalau letak kat meja dekat sini jarang lah nak kosong. letak lah empatbelas laptop pon, tak penah kosong. kosong sat ja, sementara depa pi semayang or makan. lepas tu..... macam CC! segala game ada. yes, ma family is full of boys! ;(

kalau yang pompuan-pompuan, selalunya tak habis laa bercerita. pok pek pok pek sampai pagi. macik-macik pulak masing-masing tunjuk skills masak. so what happen to me??

kalau perlu tolong kemas i ringan kan lah tulang, kalau tak perlu..... baring, makan, layan baby yang sporting, kacau budak-budak. macam bosan kan? but that's much more awesome, sebab tak payah baring saja atas katil kat bilik tu, pastu cemuih tak tau nak buat apa.

ok lah. kesian depa astro kena tutup. hujan lebat baq hang. pastu dok mai sendeng-sendeng tepi aku nak laptop.

okbai! =)

gwa dah macam guru rombongan sekolah dah semalam. hahaha. =p

ALHAMDULILLAH YA ALLAH.... =)

empty chit-chat-girlfriends love it!

Assalamualaikum =)

it's Awal Muharram day. so, happy holiday again. i em really forgot how was the feeling of wake up early in the morning and going to class. why i'm forget? because lot of holidays for this week. since my LE class all cancel, so what else i can say? sleeping all the morning is very heaven told chu!

so, the holiday with the works not a best day you can describe lah. all you can do is just restrain the self for planing out with friends or what. all you can do just... room, works, laptop, break for eating and sleeping and praying and again works.

but.... here i wanna say that how glad i em for having many girlfriends as them! wit wit. with not even going out to anywhere, i can still feel the holiday is kinda short and.... i'm enjoy it.

empty chit-chat- this is what we love to do. normally we take around two hours after dinner, in our small-centre-table, and talking about many things. i don't know what we talking about, but look at the watch, yeah it's almost 2 hours and sometimes it's more than it.

married with who, normal topic. educate future kids, normal topic. what else eh? future career, life.. all is our favorite topic. plus, we come from the very different interest, we have many things to share. even the repeated-hundred-times topics pon, seems like very enjoy to talk about it again and again.

and, because of this also, i em pretty sure that i will miss them after i graduated. huwahh!

wish to see them more and more after graduate later. inshaAllahh...

who's going to get married first? -we always asked. haha. i wish i'm the first, because i'm afraid to lost them. let them lost me, that's okay. haha.

i am getting strong because of you guys! love, love and love. how grateful i em for havig chance to know all of you! -muwah. kahhh, hover tahu?

okbai!


good friends always put the moral after the story. the moral can make me grow up more and more. and improve slowly. -inshaAllahh.. =)

aku yang dulu-video making.

Assalamualaikum =)

'kacak luar, kacak dalam, kacak dengar sini....' -ni tetiba keluar dekat playlist song aku kejap tadi. lagu ni popular masa aku second year degree kot. tak sure. but masa tu, jangan kata part kacak ni je aku hafal, habis part rap aku hafal sekali. ala, macam sekarang lah, sekarang trend lagu 'teman pengganti' pulak, hafal lah semua. nanti lupa balik. baik hafal quran. ish ish.

oh apa nak cerita, video making.

ok perangai aku, memang suka buat benda yang untuk ditunjukkan depan orang ramai kot. so mula-mula aku kena movie maker dulu, memang seronok lah. asal ada presentation kat kelas, mesti siap provide video sekali. masa dulu jiha mana ada dslr lagi. pakai camera compact je berlakon semua. masa tu pon muda lagi, commitment lain tak banyak. boleh la nak shooting lama-lama. times change, semua pon busy. kalau sekarang nak ulang macam dulu-dulu wajib tak dapek. sedih, girlfriends! miss this moment. cewah. ni belom grad lagi nih. haha.

ok so, apa kaitan dengan lagu nih?

and i really want, everything that i like, become my friends favorite gak. dan lagi melampau nak bagi kawan satu kelas minat jugak. kah kahh.

so... bila aku buat video, aku letak lah lagu-lagu yang trend pada zaman itu. kalo masa dulu tu, aku letak laa lagu senyum nih, lagu.. emm apa yer. dah tak ingat. but if it's now, maybe aku letak lagu, 'one more night' ke, 'payphone' ke, 'teman pengganti' ke.

masa tu macam puas lah bila ada yang kumat-kamit mulut ikut sekali lagu yang terpasang dekat video tu. lagi best bila dah habis kelas ada orang tanya, apa tajuk lagu tadi? best!

tapi kan.... hard to admit this, but i have to...

sekarang, aku rasa segan! hahaha. yela, orang buat video as assist audience or classmate to understand apa yang kita present, bukan bagi hiburan for nothing. memang la depa enjoy dok tengok video tu, but it gives nothing. segan je ingat-ingat balik. haha.

cemana aku boleh sedar?

long story. nanti lah. nak perabis LE nih sikit lagik. eh, eh macam orang kisah pulak cerita ni habis ka dak. kah kah...

okbai! =)


 

kaya? buat-buat kaya?

Assalamualaikum =)

i'm having a converstaion with my brother just now. the topic is kutuk-kutuk sedara dua tiga orang. laju jugak mulut adik aku mengumpat. ohhh.

there are few people who love to show off about their branded stuff. ever met them in your life? never? rugi!

'eh, slow sikit pijak air, kasut i ni bukan murah. crocs 500 tau. ori bhai!'

'aku kalau tengok orang belek tudung kat jalan tar tu, macam nak sedekah duit je. tudung buruk-buruk takde brand pon nak beli. eh pehlis!'

kind of lah.

we agreed that people with this kind of perangai selalunya bukan benaran kaya, baru nak kaya atau buat-buat kaya. sebab tu barang 500 nak riak tak hengat. yer la awok jarang dapat beli kasut 500, sekali beli kena la mention-mention. yer dak?

same goes yang keja nak compared barang dia dengan orang tu. yela, kau dah pakai beg mahal, member sebelah keras je tak perasan, kau pulun lah cari idea nak tunjuk beg mahal kau. dah takde cara, comparing jela best. baru lah rasa puas, plus baru orang nampak beg kau.

branded stuff.....

dalam blog dulu, aku penah cakap branded is shit! membazir semua. but i take that word back lah. memang mahal semua. but, quality tip top. lepas basuh takde la nak longgar sana-sini. sedap je pakai even dah seratus kali basuh. plus, beli barang branded sikit, tahan lah lama, makna kata, tak payah nak beli sepuluh kali, sebab quality tip top.

tapi.... kalau pakai barang branded yang belum tentu duit kau, tak pun belom tentu beli masa new arrival dengan duit sendiri, tak payah nak riak sangat. eh, eh kalau beli pakai duit sendiri pon tak payah riak lah. diam-diam dah. kau mampu, syukur. orang tak mampu, bagi lah kalau kau mampu sangat, nak kutuk-kutuk apesal? sakit?

you know what, people look much more beauty and confidence when they can wear whatever they have and talk in front of the people bravely! compared to muka cun, baju hebat sekali cakap tersekat-sekat, ini macam kaluuu.... tak lah hebat mana pon. pendek kata, brain is important not your look! =)

ehh... dah kat mana saya tadi? jauh dah ni. keh keh.

konklusi, pakai la apa yang mampu. tak payah nak riak sangat kalau kau mampu pon. orang yang gila riak atas apa-apa barang yang dia ada, sebenarnya dia nih insecure type. got nothing but try to have something! pathetic, BOOOOO!

plus, peduli kan lah orang yang gelabah ayam macam ni. biarlah dia terjun dengan sikap ke'insecure'an dia tu. don't compete. be confident on yourself. takde sapa tau kita, kenal kita selain diri kita sendiri.

sekian bebelan tunggu subuh.

okbai!


p/s: it's been a while for me not going out to the mall, cuci mata semua. damn you works! but... the 4th year life should be more than the previous life lah. more works i mean. so it can be more more memorable! with this, I LOVE WORKS! hahaha. =)

pathetic of you!

Assalamualaikum =)

A GIRL LOOKS AS HALF-PATHETIC WITH NO BOYFRIEND, BUT LOOKS AS SERIOUS+DAMN PATHETIC WITH NO GIRLFRIENDS! 

agreed by us! keh keh.

there is one of our classmate who is a loner. she's not really interested to join our class-event or lepaking. but she loves to hang out with her boyfriend.

but when her boyfriend gone or busy with something, her status facebook is...

'who wants to go out with me?' -dey, find girlfriends, because girlfriends never make you alone!

okbai!

i love girlfriends!

Assalamualaikum =)

ke'awesome'man pengalaman hidup aku kat universiti ni disebabkan girlfriends (kawan perempuan) yang selalu ada dengan aku. aku perempuan lah. so i really mean kawan perempuan yang selalu ada dengan aku.

so that, because i think there are lots of awesome experience i had gone through with my girlfriends, i want to have a blog which will tell people about my girlfriends or maybe few of related experience we had gone through.

hopefully this blog will not terkubur je nanti. hopefully lah.

this is my third blog btw. kah kah.

okbai! =)

I CAN'T IMAGINE WHAT IS THE FEELING OF A GIRL WHO LOVES HER BOYFRIEND MORE THAN HER GIRLFRIENDS! seems like the pathetic world they live on. =)