Sunday 7 September 2014

kerepek merepek



Assalamualaikum =)


Hi drama queen nak beraksi nih. last update pasal sedih nak habis sem 3. alhamdulillah managed to finish it finally. with almost flying color, but almost lah tak flying. paham tak?

last last upate jugak cerita pasal kerja lama. sekarang dah kerja baru. aku macam kangaroo lah jugak. sekejap lompat sana sini. apa nak buat, rezeki or haven't be in the right place as what i study and imagine to be. which is counselor.

okk so currently I am a PERMATA educator. pendidik PERMATA bahasa melayu dia. baru lagi. buat susu pon menggeletar lagi. HAHA. i'm not sure why, this time my adaptation was very bad. what makes it bad? SERIOUSLY NO ANSWER AT ALL.


but the bad was very bad i could say. selama hidup aku lah, aku tak pernah ada masalah nak berkomunikasi. umi masa hantar aku pergi matrik, malam tu dia call, dia cakap "umi tak risau, umi tau akak senang ada kawan". but this time?

SUCK. yang suck tu aku. aku macam tak reti lagi nak fully mingle around dengan pendidik kat sini. dia macam all in fake moment. I still cannot be me. can't be in their daily conversation. so stuck. so shy. seriously I hate me! who can help? tsk.


then, I still did not prepare as this going to be my permanent job. I still feel like I'm in a training and going to leave soon. I do feel like that. why?


since that was my thought, I have to finish up my study and do something with my life. sounds serious. haha. I have plan. May Allah ease. =)


currently stay at Putrajaya. and the place is.................. I just don't like it. tsk. pasal rumah semua nih, nanti lah cerita. so many things too think. hmph.


sem ni ada lagi dua subjek before thesis. Ya Allah yang nilagi cabaran hebat. May Allah ease all my journey. amin. aminnn.


ok lah. saja nak merepek. no point at all. bye!