it's a Sunday mannn!

Assalamualaikum =)


gila sangat sangat bangun dah pukul 1. malu ada jugak. dah la duduk rumah nenek. and normally on Sunday I finished all the house chores works. like wash all towels, clean up the rooms, swept and mop the floor, all lahh. tapi harini since macik aku tido sini, so..... susah la kan nak merajin rajin sangat. one thing is, aku kalo nak buat keja masa aku sorang sorang je. kalo ada ramai orang aku malas.


gloomy Sunday after all. dah bangun lewat, bangun pulak kena tunggu bilik air sebab dorang pon baru bangun jugak. teh guilty feeling bangun lambat tu buat aku rasa macam tak selesa nak buat itu ini.

then keluar rumah, cuci kereta, buang daun daun kering, sidai baju. masuk dorang dah kelua pegi kedai beli barang. see... won't ask me for take them pon. tacing 2 mins. but small matter, small matters! chilx.


then dah takde orang aku start laa buat semua semua benda yang tak siap. mop lantai pasang sarung kusyen semua tuu, then baru nak baring 1 min dorang dah balik. okkkk.


tegok tengok sikit, btw something happen last night which decrease my guilty feeling ah not just guilty hate, stress blah blah. aku siap plan nak lari rumah dah harini. kah kah. sebab ni jugak la aku tak sahur. jangan tanya aku apa rasa dia. memang separa nyawa dah rasa masa pukul 7 tadi. fuhh.


then masuk bilik, baring jap. talking with umi sambil tahan air mata. selesai selesai sikit benda dengan moja. aku dah sesiap nak pegi gombak. nenek suruh gik kedai pulak. sampai kedai, macik aku lagi satu nak datang buke sama pulak. so so......

cancel plan. NAK AWE! =(


em em all and all everything was just fine. i really really in unbalance emotion. seriously. apesal tah!!! =(

kbai! nak terawih berjemaah kat rumah jek.


p/s: for people hurt more bcs of me, SOORY VERY MUCH! =(

unhappy

Assalamualaikum


if i have money right now, i will go far from people. very farrrr.....

ah susah la nak cakap. sekarang nak cerita kat orang pon dah takde yang free untuk dengar. so......


simpan jelaa. but seriously i want go very far from others. included family.



such a s#*^ evening. don't have mood et all. kbai! =(

makanan

Assalamualaikum =)

ekarang kan kalo tengok bloglist aku semua blog kakak kaka yang dah kawin, yang ada anak dua ke tiga ke satu. dah tak minat dah wey nak baca cerita bujang bujang. balik balik penat kerja, study,sentap dengan kawan, luahan bf, dan lain lain.

cerita kakak kakak ni best sikit sebab aku boleh la imagine rumah aku camana, nak handle family camana, blah blah blah. pastu mesti awak cakap dalam hati, "patut lah nak kawen sokmo!' muahahaha.

hey the time come already la. i'm big enough, matured enough. gitewww! haha.


so bulan puasa tahun ni, kind of different thing to me. i stay with nenek. emm..

talking about the food. seriously aku takde mood langsung nak demand demand. dia macam makan ja la apa yang ada. asal kenyang. makanan dia kadang kadang tu, ayam masak merah je ke, daging kicap je ke, pon dah sedap sangat dah.

when i'm in first year degree, i will cry like ___________ if no nasi tomato at bazaar in front of me. second year degree, everyday want new food. third year, last year...... tak ingat tapi macam nak makanan sedap jek hari hari. sekarang......

aku macam kalo terliur apa apa, aku nak masak sendiri. sebab puas hati puas makan. meme la tak reti sangat masak tuuu. taoi nak gak buat sendiri.

tapi tomyam ah, tak jumpa lagi resipi yang sedap. hmphh.


ok la. esok kerja. see ya! bye.

wrong direction

Assalamualaikum =)

got few free minutes before berbuke. so want to write something which had happen few days ago. on first Ramadhan.

i went to UOA building for an interview. the staff said it's nearer to Monorail Raja Chulan. i ever went to UOA before from KLCC. but if i from BTR that's quite far lah to go from KLCC station. so just gamble try from Monorail Raja Chulan.


arrived there, i iz like mahcik mahcik sikit, i prefer to ask around if i don't know the place. arrived there i ask the guard,'where the uoa building?' he went to the counter ask his friend then come to me give the direction. and i just follow his direction.

walk and walk and walk and walk. no UOA pon! it's first day fasting okay. thirsty like carzy okay time nih. then i asked another guard in front of  'i don't remember the name' building. then he said blahblahblah.

ok i follow his direction again. until i can't walk any more. not bcs very tired la, but bcs i see too much car, no more possible building dah. then a guy stop by. why? i'm lost. what u looking for? UOA building. he point to the KLCC which around 15 minutes behind me, i had passed it before. he said, walk to there and UOA behind it.

i already passed it! ok ok ok.

walk again to the back. then blahblahblah, find it. dah la pegi for nothing. penat kaki den yo!


ok ok. balik tu aku pikir apesal aku kena camni? then i remembered something.

last few days from this day, i'm at lrt station. the train almost arrive. one foreigner asked me 'where is hang tuah station?' i said.... 'oh that another side. u cross the road, then ride the train.' he go down and i don't know what happen.

PADAHAL ITU MASJID JAMEK. LAGI DUA STATION DAH HANG TUAH. gila kejam aku! dah laaa dia foreigner. kesian sungguh sungguh.


so i'm deserve that! Allah balas cash. huhuhu.


moral: DON'T HELP OTHERS IF YOU DON'T KNOW ESPECIALLY ABOUT ROAD. got it?

kbai!


(apa apa la aku tulis. tunggu nak buke kan. paham paham kan jela.)

salam Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum =)


nothing much to be told on this Ramadhan. i enjoyed everything around me. the people, the food, the time, the tarawikh, the tadarus, etc etc. love it!

gonna end my jobless title this Monday. wish the job is not suck et all. aminnn. oh ya, it's a cikgu tadika.

keep improve our ibadah bcs it such a good and special month for us. celeb this well people. don't waste it.

doa as much as we can. Allah will listen to us, and granted it. inshaAllah if that's belong to us and good for us. Alllah is the Most Knowing. inshaAllahh.

see ya! =)

with auni. anak sedara sepupu kot panggil dia. =)

done interview at adni

Assalamualaikum =)

fuh fuh. lega tak terkata.

aku dah la tak prepare much. pergi pon mata mengantok mengantok. nasib la sampai ke destinasi dengan baik.


sampai tu, ustat mana tah sambut. kebetulan la dia lalu situ. takde la sebab ustaz nak sambut aku kann. aku bukan ustazah pilihan. masa tengok ustat ni aku dah macam... wah, 'healthy'nya environment dia.

once jejak je kaki dalam pagar tu rasa macam lain. rasa macam tak macam kat luar. oh senang kata rasa dia macam masa jejak kaki kat Maahad. hewhew. apesal bukan uia? uia tu dia so so jek. sama jela masuk uia dengan masuk mid valley.


ok then went to the office. again i saw lot of maahad's type girl. rendah diri tau rasa. ite je biasa biasa. tapi mujur la pagi tadi masa selongkar selongkar bag tu jumpa stokin amik pastu pakai. kalo tak.... lagi kerdil rasa diri. hehe.

pastu isi borang hijau. serius gwa tak prepare pasal islamic aspect sangat. bajet hebat lettew kan tak prepare dah. so dalam tu banyak ah dia suruh isi pasal pasal agama. nebesh nebesh tau ite. paling tak leh blah, dia tanya buku islamik apa yang aku baca and motivate me? HAHA

aku masa ni dok imagine buku buku kat bilik dila. haha. tapi wajib ah tak ingat kan. pastu gugel. nasib tau isi form tu sorang sorang. gugel tapi tetiba cuak, buat dia tanya apa aku paham dari buku tu nak gebang apa? so aku pon jujur. aku tulis, solusi, cerita dari syurga. ini jela yang aku ingat aku penah baca. haha.


ok then finish the form went to the principal ofis. principal dia macam watak 'ibu' madam materneli kat censerve tuu. warming but firm on certain issue. okkk ketaq lutut habaq ang. interviewed by two people, principal dia and quality assurance kot kalo tak silap. ok yang ni not just normal question, kind of tough question gak. kak rehan kata, dia sembang sembang je. aku rasa.... THIS IS NOT SEMBANG! takot wey!

then after that, went to the one of the bilik. preparation for micro-teaching. AH SUDAHHH!

tapi yang ni aku ada gugel gugel sikit malam tadi. tapi aku dah prepare tajuk aku, sekali dia bagi buku suruh cari dalam tu. amboiii.

masa ni aku mula tak ingat apa apa makna pon dalam buku tu. pastu bbm kakziha suruh cari kan makna. muahahaha. thanks kakziha. haha.

ok lepas prepare masuk kelas.


okkkk..... budak budak dia masya-Allah.... english tu mother tongue okayy! aku ni cakap english pon once in a month. mau tak kecut kaki. tapi be cool. nasib lah. i had deliver my best. ada rezeki inshaAllahhh....


aku suka environment dia. memang ah tak match dengan aku, yet. tapi maybe ni jalan Allah bagi. aku kan salu nak berubah tapi tak senang. and maybe this is the way. inshaAllahh....


so wish me have the rezeki for it. Aminn. =)

kerja oh kerja.

Assalamualaikum =)


kerja memang banyak. ko apply je mesti ada yang call for interview. tapi kerja kerja tu tak semua ok. tak semua match dengan cara kita. so.....


as i aware of this now, tomorrow i'm going back to my field, which is teaching. HAHA. hari tu suruh jadi cikgu ganti kemain sombong. pandang hujung mata jek. tapi now..... ok ok sireh pulang ke ganggang dah aku ni.

so esok interview kat adni school. jauh senanya dari cheras ni. ni aku tengah pikir pikir camana ni. tapi nanti jela pikir. as for now, just do my best for interview. fuhh.

BISMILLAHHH.....


eh ite an jadi cikgu english. auwww! bi pon terbarai barai. camana la nanti.

WISH ME LUCK YA! =)

LRT thought

Assalamualaikum =)


aku memang suka naik LRT. dulu masa dengan ex aku, kalo dah bosan dating, aku ajak dia naik LRT. jap gik dia cakap, "nak buat apa?" aku cakap saja saja. lama tak naik. rindu! pastu takde la bodoh bodoh naik pastu turun, so pegi la klcc jap beli roti boy ke apa apa. asal dapat naik LRT.

dia macam bangga wey. ko tengok kat jalan raya kereta tak dapat gerak sebab sesak. aku dapat gerakkk... lepas tu, kan ada kat atas, dapat la tengok aktiviti manusia. dapat tengok building satu satu. eh best! just yang tak best bila bersesak dengan jejantans. tu je tak best. tambah yang bau mashammm! euw.


and every time aku naik LRT aku akan plan macam macam. nak update entry cam ni. nak buat cam tu. tapi bila balik salunya malas. dia macam dah penat. TAPI... pada harini, aku nak gak tulis.

first of all, aku nak update pasal pengalaman kerja kat UTS hari tu. aku keja dalam..... emm 11 hari kot. tak dapat gaji pon, berenti dalam paksa dan rela.

ok seriously keja kat situ very best! feeling dia macam ko mula mula masuk U. mingle up with new friends. learn new things. ada assessment bagai. memang superbb! paling best bila time lunch sembang itu ini, dig to the ground pasal someone punya life. eh memang best! background orang pon lain lain. ada yang buat dip, ada yang sesah tulang dari lepas SPM cari keja, ada yang dah pegi sana sini, ada yang dah kawen, ada yang dah bercerai. best doh! serius.

tapi kind of culture shock for me. sebab tetiba dekat sini ramai lelaki. masa first day tu, half laki half pompuan. seram la kann. aku da la kat edu tu tak nampak laki sangat. so memula tu i iz very malu! sampaikan neves dia, orang panggil muka dah blushing. tapi slowly ok lah. bila dah kena satu group dengan lelaki, buat role-play, practise semua dengan dorang slowly all just ok.


dekat sana belaja macam macam. VERY PRECIOUS i told you. belaja objection handling (this is difficult), belaja professional and comprehensive presentation, belaja support member member, belaja nervous macam gila, eh macam macam! sebab tu aku kata v1ery best. paling best belaja kena tahan emosi bila kena marah. bcs it seems like to normal lah nak kena marah semua tu. so, best!

tapi... tu lah, as i mentioned in my previous entry, conventional insurance tak boleh nak jual. plus majorities of ulama said it's haram. so.....

inshaAllah... rezeki yang tak syubhah ada kat mana mana. =)


masa nak pergi tu, daramatik habis. mula mula masa lunch, aku lari laju laju dah. cari jeny lepak kat starbuck the weld practise nak cakap kat Sashi (team leader) camana. wait, pagi tu, which is 1 July 2013, we just got the new team, new motivational spirit, new cubicle, new friends, all new lah. masa tu goyah gila rasa nak bereti tu. tapi kenangkan reason aku ni part of Muslim prinsip... so... think wise lah.

then before masuk, dah la sejam lunch hour tu dok praktis jek. praktis sekali luah perasaan lah. tak makan, tak solat. ingat lepas hantar surat boleh blah teros. then before masuk dengan lapar lapar nih, call lah umi. umi support, umi cakap 'Allah maha tahu'.

so teros lah masuk, gigil lutut jumpa Sashi, then Sashi cakap, why? aku cakap cakap, then dia angguk. pastu suruh duduk keja dulu. HUKOLOHHHHH!! amik kau dah ah lapa, tak semayang lagi, eh memang tak tenteram lah kann...

aku duduk, buat call sikit, toilet, call tiolet, call toilet. last sekali dah nak dekat pukul 4 time tu, aku pandang semua tengah buat keja, aku angkut beg dalam loker teros blah. muahahaha.

ada benda kat sini tak boleh cerita ________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________.


then turun bawah, hujan lebat bak ang. aku redah jugak sampai menara am bank. naik surau, semayang nangis nangis. drama kan? hahaha. nasib orang tak ramai. tapi aku tunggu saviour takde pon. penipu je lebih cerita cerita melayu tu semua.


dah kering air mata, aku pon balik.... NENEK SUPRISE, ECAH BALIK AWAL! haha. nenek tanya apesal? aku pon cerita lahhh....


dan since then, hidup baru aku sebagai jobless person begin.


the end.


cerita lagi satu nanti lah cerita. aku pon bosan taip panjang panjang. orang yang baca mesti lagi bosan. ye dak?

kbai!

a night

Assalamualaikum =)


malam ni dapat la cover few parts yang bajet bajet akan ditanya masa interview nanti.

to tell the truth, seriously i can't imagine myself be in the situation where i need to teach the babies. mana tak babies umur budak budak permata ni 1 - 4 years old.

sedangkan kalo kawen pon aku dah plan nak lambat lambat sikit anak tu. tetiba......

REZEKI ALLAH. maybe hikmah dia bagi aku reti sikit jaga budak. kot.

lagi pon, kan be with kids is one of the way to reduce stress. so... I CAN DO IT! cewahh.


awak nampak tak kite tak main main? sekarang pukul 2 tau, stady lagi. sedap sedap jek nak cakap orang main main. orang main main atas benda yang tak serius la. for this serius matter i will do my best. just trust me.

sedey ah. every time u tired, mesti benda benda tak best pon jadi besar. padahal orang nak cerita benda lain yang lagi best. wuwwuwuwuw!

ah tak sedih pon. kalau sayang kena la tinggal tinggalkan. ewahh!


so malam ni dah cover sikit sikit pasal kementerian. pasal permata tu benda apa. pasal development stage.

betol la benda ni bagos. new thing in education system. tetiba rasa nak bersemangat lebih. rasa nak.....


snap finger snap finger.


FOKUS INTERVIEW NI DULU BOLEH TAK?? errr.


lepas ni ko tengok la aku jadi puteri umno. muahaha. aku dah nampak dah aku punya program nanti ada kak mah tu. mohon aku tak ikot fesyen rambut dia dah. hewhew.

but honestly, this such a good idea. ya prevention better then cure. melentur buluh biarlah dari rebungnya. bla bla blaaa...


okbai!

rungsing!

Assalamualaikum =)


rungsing smiley senyum jugak kan? haha. kite tak nak ah orang yang singgah blog kite stress. tambah tambah orang tu... nanti dia dah la penat keja, penat layan kerenah i yang tiap hari ada kejutan tak terkejut, pastu singgah sini jadi stress. tak nak ah cam tu. ( YES YOU MY KAIN PELIKAT MAN ;p)


rungsing wey harini.

mula mula tunggu result tak kelua kelua. ok takpe lagi. lepas tu tunggu surat spp yang tak sampai sampai lagi. ada bangang jugak aku dengan surat ni. dah aku letak tempat interveiw putrajaya apesal la aku gik letak alamat rumah untuk surat tu? eii omey tau bengap dia ni!

dah tu sekarang aku macam pak gad plaza see hoy chan. bunyi orang kat lua intai-intai. mana pos laju ni??? ;(


lagi rungsing next week kan dah nak puasa. then i don't have work yet. camana nak shopping raya? camana nak seronok seronok sikit? alaaaaa..... ;(


ok ok bateri laptop da nak habis. nak pegi makan.

eiiii  cam ni pon nak buat entry eh? nampak tak loser yang bosan nak mampos kat sini? nak ikot nenek ng makuda gik jalan shopping malas. nak tunggu posmen punya pasal. isk.

kbai!


RUNGSING LAGI SATU SEBAB RESULT TAK KELUA KELUA! huwa.....

preparation process must begin now!

Assalamualaikum =)


be a jobless is such a boring day. sehari macam setahun. boring bapak! makan tak yah cakap. lepas makan, makan lagi. ei geram tau! malam ni before tido neves nak naik penimbang. isk.


so... preparation. bukan preparation kawen lew! takde orang nak kitee lagi. isk isk. lagi pon ni tengah menaiki tangga pelan pelan. ahemm!

ni preparation ke arah rezeki yang lebih baik. inshaAllahh....

again alhamdulillah....

tak sangka main klik klik itu hari ada makna. masa tu aku tengah merempan tak dapat keja lagi. pastu aku bising bising dalam bilik. pastu tak silap aku jeny kot, dia kata ni haa ada jawatan guru, cer ko apply. aku po mood angin bengang bengang tu pon klik saja laa. then, pegi website keja yang lain klik keja lain pulak.

but seriously tak sangka, ini adalah tawaran jadi cikgu. so fast! i'm not even ready yet. but with this i will try for do my best. maybe Allah dengar doa aku hari hari nak duit, nak berenti mintak duit kat umi dengan abi, nak kawen cepat. LOL! =p


but so guilty senanya dekat kawan kawan. serius bukan saja nak senyap senyap masa apply ni. as i mentioned above, aku klik main main jek. tak perasan pon ini jawatan apa. kalau aku tauini serius wajib aku gik tau korang. sorry sorry sorry. but please wish me luck friends! I need u gaiz punya pray and support too. pelisss.... ;(


then so umi sekarang, since aku duduk sini hari hari dia kol. kang phone rumah ke phone rumah tak payah bayar. so memang hari hari la dia kol sembang sejam dua. tadi dia kol, "umi nak amik cuti lah bawak akak pegi putrajaya". err. tapi aku tak bagi. inshaAllah aku reti pegi sendiri. dah la selasa. kalo umi cuti isnin, selasa lagi, isn't it waste? umi kena simpan cuti untuk aku convo nanti. kot la hari isnin... (MINTAK SIMPANG. MINTAK SIMPANG. HAHA)


tadi tanya kak nad and kak ann (senior) pasal interview dorang. tak nak panjang pulak notes kak nad bagi. ok ok esok i start study bersungguh sungguh. inshaAllahhh... esok gak abi nak datang. ingat kalo dia lama and free nak ajak dia buat site visit kejap. putrajaya la. kite tak hafal jalan. isk! ;(

ok lah. wish me luck gaiz! pelis pelis.... see ya! byeee =)

perancangan Allah...

Assalamualaikum =)


hi chuols! ok tak payah buat buat mood ceria. broken buat cara broken. bcs it's sound bapok while I'm pretending happy. err.

so..... tajuk dah macam orang kena kawen paksa dah kan. hahaha. bukan bukan. ini pasal.... aaaa pasal.....

ok last entry told you that i want to write about the job experiences kan? so....

will write it. of course bcs it's a great moment and very good experience. will not just keep it alone, will share just....

I'M ALREADY RESIGN.


apa ni kata best, kata awesome, kata blah blah blah sekali resign. apa ni? apa ni? macam penipu jek.....

ok ok cam ni lah. betol lah. awesome betol, great betol, semua betol but...... IT'S A CONVENTIONAL INSURANCE. what's wrong with conventional?

read this link. it's a new experience and new knowledge for me too. so I want u gaiz do read and understand this too. bcs it's not wasted pon malah dapat laa tambah tambah ilmu secara indirect. BACA TAU! tetiba nak caps lock. haha.


okay, so..... now i'm jobless. esok nak start pegu job hunter lagi. wish me luck ya!!

pasal kerjaa tu.... nanti lah ehh.

now broken mood. isk isk. ;(