i need to climb that stairs

another things that i hate while be at a free state is STALKING. ya by having almost 24 hours in a bed with no commitment and life (urgh), this stalking-thing is destroyed my mind a lot! A LOT! AAAAA LOTTTTT!


there is a girl, who i can't say much besides that, SHE IS SO LUCKY!


born in the rich family + smart (not just smart, it's very smart) + having a super duper great friends + never alone + got prizes all the day + delicious food + very pretty + romantic partner + etc + etc. name all the greatest thing you want, she have it.....


so how come meyh i am not jealous? F jealous. sapa tak nak hidup cam tu kan?

BUT....

percaya aturan Allahh... percaya Qada' dan Qadar Allah.... syukur atas apa kita ada. --------- >>>> this is what i keep telling myself over and over when me in unstable feel toward this.


life is full of choice. make a effort on the choices you have! effort + doa + effort + doa + effort + doa. inshaAllah with Allah bless we can get it. all in our hand and His will.

as it for me?

i'm not naturally born to have those kinds of greatest things. BUT I AM SO GRATEFUL TO ALLAH.

in front of me, there are few stairs. I need to choose a stair which lead to the life that I want. It's so high! with patience, with effort, with support, with Allah will, I may climb them one-by-one.


Ya Allah, make this happen for me. THIS? my life aim's.

Bismillah..... =)