the truth

it's not about the foods.
it's not about no friend here.
it's about..... I NEED YOU!

for.......

something - not - right - with - me!

that's it .

=(

hey MAY

Assalamualaikum =)

APRIL gonee... bye APRIL! bye APRIL! tak tau lah kebetulan kaa apa. FEBRUARY i spent too much money. MARCH not. APRIL yes. hopefully MAY not. and JUNE even tersurat yes pon, i bet must no jugak. dah tu mana nak ada duit dah. mih mih =)

MAY inshaAllah gonna be my last semester for be a student after very loooong time be a student. finally i see a fullstop in it. tak tau lah bila nak belaja lagi. rajin cepat. tak rajin lambat lah sikit. hewhew.

MAY jugak aku ada aim yang maha tinggi. aimnya adalah, by the end of MAY i done everything. i say everything, i mean everything!!!! session notes, AR, all documentations, presentations, blahblahblah. in a 31 days? i try my best!! banyak bendanya. tapi kalau buat pelan - pelan and try discipline, inshaAllah....


so, inshaAllah jugak akan stop bermain - main. (MEMANG KENA STOP DUIT DAH HABIS!) sighh. haha. hikmah la ni kot Allah tunjuk. kalau ada duit, mana nak reti dok diam diam kan? so tak dak duit baru reti senyap. gituuu.

MAY jugak bakal jadi kisah -kisah sedih. mana tak sedih I'm going to leave all my friends, classmates, roommates, etc etc. perhaps JUNE jugak, but as for my course, we settled all the presentations on MAY. so can't expect much lah about June. hmphh.

eh eh no sigh pon ah. camni lah hidup kan? kan ada blog, fb, twitter suma. inshaAllah will feel dekat even jauh. KORANG SEDIH TAU NAK BERPISAH??? isk.


itu belum lagi dengan students. memang aku garang, tapi aku sayang. sayang yang tinggi melangit. really hopes that u guys could be someone good later. LOVE U GAIZ!! fuh, nak nangis rasa. lols!


ok ah. nak mandi. continue AR plak pastu. bukit tabur ni aku tak nampak sangat harapan aku nak bangun ke tak ni esok pagi. semangat pulak nak buat keja malam ni. syukur.... =)

okbai! =)

alahai

Assalamualaikum =)


dah ada bb baru ganti bb yang hilang tuu.. kali ni curve ja. beli tadi kat carefour cheras perdana. murah ja, promotion price. mana nak ada duit kalo tak murah. murah pon tak dak duit dah. lepas ni memang kena jimat jimat jimat. isk!

tapi laa ni mana ada sim kad lagi. so ibarat ada badan tak dak roh. macam mayat ja aku tengok fon tuu. btw, kalini putih! yey me. harap ah putih sampai tua. jangan 4 hari saja putih.

dah laa aku macam dah pasrah dah kot pasai phone hat hilang tuu. ni pasrah sungguh ni inshaAllah. hmph. tapi sigh and sigh and sigh can't stop wey.


ish apesal tak dak mood langsung langsung ni!!! aku patutnya habiskan verbatim hat terbungkang tengah jalan tak habis buat. aku patut plan next session for AR. aku patutnya..... alahai malas!

tadi aku dah ah baru teringat. SESSION AR AKU DALAM BOLD TUUUU!!!

damn sungguh.both session dalam tu hokayy. aku dah la tak transfer lagi ke laptop! habis punah 15% research aku. barua sungguh ! ;(

dear theft, bak mai la balik bold tu, i bagi u curve ni. bak lahh.. please!! pasrah dalam tidak.


oh ya tadi dah jumpa dah burger bakar abang burn tu. ni nanti la aku nak bebel. maleh nak transfer gambar. bb laa ni camera 2MP jaa. maka memang lagi ah malas nak upload gambar dah.

awat bb lagi ? 1 murah dan mampu milik. 2 senang nak contact orang lelaju. (tapi hat i dia bunyi ketik ketik ketik, keraih baq ang keypad dia)


ok lah. alahai apa lah malam ni takde mood ni? apahaldenganakuni?????????? ;(

okbai!

BB DAH PERGI !

Assalamualaikum =(


yer betol tajuk tu . makanya pada tanggal 27 / 4 / 2013 my beloved bold 2 gone. gone to ... i wish now it leaves with the good man . tolong lah jangan apa - apakan gambar apa sumaa. pastu eh macam - macam lah.

tapi aku tak halal kan . redha memang redha . tapi memang takde kamus hidup aku kata nak maapkan orang cenggini . yaaa, bold 2 ja . bukan mahai mana . tapi .................


ITU JA LAA HARTA YANG MENCERIAKAN HARI AKU SELEPAS LAPTOP ! bangang sungguh bangang sapa yang amik tu..


ok ah nak apdate banyak - banyak pon dah tak dak mood .

bai =(

nervous

Assalamualaikum =)


kalo semalam entry itew nak jiwa - jiwa saja , harini dah tak dah . malam semalam lagi dah ok. dah bahagia. hik hik awak , maap lah itew kan over emosi. drama , novel banyak sangat. nak buek cano ? haha .

so harini all going well and bombastic ! ya meet the five of us along the day . doing some shopping stuff and .... eat and gelak - gelak . and lupa sebenarnya esok adalah Jumaat . which the school still on , which lagi the teacher is the teacher . but yey esok sekolah . yey yey ! ha giteww.

ni masa supervision tadi. cantik kan ? kan ? krik krik . 

ni weols tiga. uols dua gamba dalam tab alya . dia dah tido kot tak whatsep pon . =)

panjang intro ? bila nak masuk taju ni haa ? haa ? hew hew hew .


okay so as my previouuuuuussss entry which i ever tell anyone who read my blog , that i am tooo tak sabar sabar nak kerja . so memang banyak sangat -sangat lah apply kat jobstreet tu . kelebek sana sini , yaa really want job . dia punya nak sangat keja tu sampai, pedulik lah hapa hapa keja pon , asal nama dia kejaa . giteww.

tapi bila scroll up and down kat jobstreet tu, bila nampak hat relate -relate dengan education tu jiwa iteww meloncat - loncat ala pocong tau teruja dia . can't deny i love to be educator . love it damn much ! even tak berapa nak dapat educate sangat pon kan , i really feel more more attach with it .


so after the many many times apply , finally got few interview . and dua dua pon relate to education which brings me thousand excited ! gituu . tapi yang satu tu jauh sangat dah ah kawasan elite , mana den mampu nak hidup situ.... so , got to let it go .

BUT FOR THIS ONE..... i wish this is the one. Aminn ya Allah , Aminn ya Rahman .

so i'm going to the interview this Saturday . wish saja mana jalan kan ? so must have thousand preparation .

but obviously lah , first of all , ATTIRE ! itew dah ah nak teros keluar dating lepas tu. confuse tau nak pakai baju apa. but..... i think the peplum could help kot . going to wear it lah kot. awak , kalau awak baca , i need your comment for this . please ya ! =)

baju ni . what you say? appropriate ? less appropriate ? not et all ?

then preparation yang lain -lain tu lagi lah kan . camana nak jawap soalan apa suma tu . oh neves! neves! dah la tempat ni memang pentingkan english. ooemmjii ooemmjii ! -takpee . I will do my best .

dia siap state gaji depends on english essay . habaq sat kat aku camana tak neves ? i dah lah lama dah tak tulis essay . takpaaaa . going to keep improve !


after all i will try my best . but ya due to this is my first time , i can't hope too much lah. just usaha dah serah pada Allah . InshaAllah kalau ini terbaik buat aku , will get the chance . inshaAllahh. =)


okbai! =)

tears stop please.

looked at your fb, my recent update was already seen on your notification.

okay then. why don't you reply the text? why? why? why?

macam tak boleh berenti berpikir abt this why.


i think i'm giving up abt this dah. ya it's painful. i mean this issue.
too comfort make you not appreciate ke?
if yes, then i will make some space here.
ya just to make we know how to feel each other.

i think that call was my last effort i could do.
after all, i have feeling.
that's the thing that i really want you to know that the pain is PAINFUL.

i can put minyak gamat to wound on leg.
rub pati halia on stomach if it happens to be sick.
but if heart?? can't put anything besides self-talk self-talk self-talk just for support anywhere sick.
but self-talk alone? how much sangat lah it can help.


i give love for be loved again.
not for...................
but if can't tell me.
i will not do this stupid thing again. *sigh

semoga bertemu lagi. byeee. ;(

apa apa jela tajuk.

sebab tu aku tak suka pujuk orang and suka dipujuk. sebab aku tak suka merajuk lama-lama. as it for me, asal ada orang pujuk pon dah cukup baik. tapi untuk orang lain? lepas pujuk.....

things getting bigger. and yes i hate the feeling of being rejected! hate it damn much.


but, that's what i get tonight. sumpah ah tak de mood langsung -langsung nak buat keja - keja nih. esok pagi la lepas subuh sambung. malam ni aku nak tengok movie puas -puas. bcs brain can't work.

wajib lah tak sempat siap sebab ada half lagi chapter 3 yang tak buat lagi. BUT........

ah malas pikir!


pathetic kan entry ni? hahaha. kisah pulakkk....

okbai!


gatal je tangan nak sambung lagi. sabar. sabar. sabar. !!!!

Need more and more time

Assalamualaikum

Internet is quite cruel today. Itew baru tuit geram kat dia, teros jadi slow. Geram betei! Da ah time genting, genting nak carik satu mende yang normally I lack in it. Padiaa tu? Padiaa?

Ice breaking! Part group counseling tu ok la kan. Bcs its really needs and normally comes by its own. But tang indi tuuu..

Tak silap aku la semalam aku ada post pasal individual client case tak buat lagi kot. So today, sacrifice day and time (ayat nak macam buruh je kan time buat keja, kah kah) find the exact intervention, plan, theory and client. Yes I got all I want dah kot.

So inshaAllah tomorrow will start the session. Nasib laa blog ni x der orang baca, kalo madam dengan kawan - kawan itew baca abis lah. Dorang dah nak terminate session, aku baru nak start! Apakahhh?

I can't find any interested issue before ni. Till last week. Sebab tu ah baru nak gelabah ayam. Ni betul betul gelabah ayam wa cakap lu.

Aku plan 4 session. Usha kalendar tecik tu, yer memang cukup cukup 4 minggu je lagi pon. At the week I plan for the termination, its a last week for my internship. What's a sad! Isk.

Sad sebab nak tinggal sekolah tu. Sad lagi sebab... The intervention and theory that I used is kind of longgggg term punya effectiveness kot. So.. Sorry dear mangsa (student) teacher can't help you much. Huk huk.

Okeh. Dah mengantok ah. Yong tau fuu harini banyak bawang putih. Payau payau tau mulut malam ni. Dah ah I hate garlic to the death. Isk!

Harapan yang menggunung ni sebab dah tak dak masa. Hewhew. Wish for everyhting that has been prepared and planned can be run smoothly. InshaAllah... Allah, sungguh kau maha tahu, kau maha menentukan, tetapkan lah segalanya sebaiknya. Aminnn.

Okbaii. :)

P/s : mana dia ni??? Fine awak, fine! X nak kejut subuh esok. If you read this, wake me up for subuh bcs I guess u sleep then going to wake up later and cont ur works till morning kot.



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my thing.

betol ouh malam ni malas berpikir. aku kopipes verbatim masuk dalam table, nak analyze..... nak boh remarks, reflection pe suma tu... BLANK! macam malas pikir.

lepas tu marilah buat benda hat rajin. hat ni tak yah suruh aku boleh buat sendiri. dia macam......

suka suka. ya memang tak lawa mana, biaq pi la asal puas! cukup la kot macam standard sekolah-sekolah. kih kih.

btw, iklan hat atas ni poyo saja. bukan nak pi paste betol pon. tapi aku boh kat participants selection dalam methodology tuu ada advertisement bagai, so buat laa satu nampak real sikit. ah lagi pon tak susah dan best. kih kih.

okay, laa nak pi baca buku theory sat. dalam banyak-banyak benda, aku boleh lupa pasal...... individual client punya hal. serius oh. apa intervention nak buat. sapaa. dan semuaaa sekali! 

okay so should work on it NOW! please laa esok tak banyak cikgu tak datang. susah lah banyak relief. sesi tak jalan. isk! isk!

okbai! =)

betul betul touching okkk.

kepada yang terbaca dan terasa,

i really wish that one day i could just ignore your wall. i mean your fb wall. but up till now, i can't. isk.

don't demand much lah. just like i share something, u say 'nice, okay, oh really me?' or whatever lah. as simple as that. alaa as u do with others lah.

yes i know in this kind of comfort zone don't need that pon ok, just us know our heart, our intention, etc etc. BUT, IS IT SO DIFFICULT??? em em?

ya we can just share them while seeing each other, but you know i can't bring them to show them to u. so the feeling was not so real. with that medium i really want to read the response!

IS IT SO SO DIFFICULT???


seems like nonsense eh? whatever is it, i am really really mean for this one. if not, it doesn't need to be an entry lah. wish you can understand. isk. =(


that is why, I kind of 'diam diri' at BK while you said, "KISAH PULAK AKU KAU MERAJUK!' this is the reason. not the word, the things you did behind that word.


wish you could understand this simple + nonsense but not nonsense feeling.


sincerely,
AWESOME
AISHA

Assembly again

Assalamualaikummm...

Tahukah anda assembly sekolah pada hari Isnin adalah sgt boring? Jadi mujur aku bleh apdate blog dari sini so... It can help me to kill the time lah. Kang aku abis apdate assembly pon habis sama. Yey kan?

Oh ya semalam last entry pasal video kan? Sekali tak tunjuk pon harini. Finee! Ah tapi x kisah lah. Nanti bebilaa nak tunjuk senang dah siap. Kan? Kan?

okay ni nak geli - geli pasal cinta pulakk... Ijinkan guwee yaa...


How I wish u are a FREE MAN who always have time with me 24/7. Dia macam kalo iteww JK anytime you with me... But that's only my wish ah. Tp aku pasti wish ni bosan. Sebab kalo ada selalu dia macam dah boring pulakkk. Da ah nak kawen tu lama lagi, so nanti tempoh bercinta jadi panjanggg. Terlalu panjangg. Boring! So better this way lah.

Tu lah Allah know better. Just me, kena adapt more and more. Alaa senanyaa aku yang empty empty last weekend tu yang pelik pelik kot. Ni da busy ok la ni after this. InshaAllah...

Ok laa. Da bagi bagi hadiah. Nak abis dah ni.

Okbai! ;)



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AKU SENANYA MARAH DENGAN DIRI AKU. MARAH SANGAT! SEBAB NI BUKAN PERTAMA KALI, NI DAH KEJUTA JUTA KALI JADI CAMNI.


TIAP KALI JADI TIAP KALI AKU INSAF. TAK NAK DAH BUAT VIDEO. PASNI KALAU BUAT TEST DULU BOLEH SAVE KA DAK. TAPI.....

BILA EXCITED NAK BUAT VIDEO, AKU LUPAAA SUMA TUU.

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SAJA CAPS LOCK, BIAQ PERASAAN DALAMAN KELUA HABIS-HABISAN. AAH TAKDE KENA-MENGENA. AKU PON RASA CAMTU. HAHA.

Sunday plan.

Assalamualaikum =)


yesterday, for the plan that i arranged, won't go as planned. few things not finish yet. like verbatim tuu, yang analysis baru dua column. kenapa tak siapkan? bcs i found the easier way to finish it and ya you know, I'm the one who love to leave the work even a word before the submission. dia mcam tak complete tau bila esok submit keja tu dah siap 100%. nanti aku maleh nak check main print ja mula la benda tu tak sempurna. -ewahh panjang lebar haa explain. so i count it as finish lah.


AR.... not touch it yet. today is the day. sebabkan tak plan apa-apa tak pergi mana-mana, so mari lah ke library. mana tau ni my last time jejak library uia before grad ni.. kan? ye ah few weeks left. kalo ada kawan-kawan tak lepak library, lepak mcd. ini kali lah lepak library. tapi harini tutup pukul 5 lah. lepas tuuu??? -tengok kaki dan mata, tah tah mengantok! haha.

library iium yang cantik! it's ever be my favorite place before. masa exam. hewhew. =) 

video... done memang done. tapi macam nak letak letak caption sikit ah. itu nanti malam.

esok sekolah. yey! tapi baju tak lipas lagi. itu pon balik karang ah buat.

nak siap-siap. okbai! =)


p/s: kena minum air pink bagi tak mengantok and tak lapar. serius it's help. =)

Saturday at room.

Assalamualaikum =)

i start this Saturday with sumpah - annoyed - feeling.
'electric... electric shock... ' (ringtone)
look at the phone's clock, damn 6.51am. which... i have around 9 minutes to taking bath, make up, blah blah and school.
'awak, bangun'
'mati lah dah pukul 7. okbai.' -sopan kan bangun terus sebut mati. apa laa.
senanya PHONE AKU PUNYA JAM CEPAT TAH BERAPA MINIT TAH.
it's seriously cepat! cepat yang sampai last weeks, not even a day pun me wake up late and rush.
seriously it's veryyyy good.
do that girls so you won't be late for anywhere dah. haha.
jap gik moja cakap, 'HARI TU JANJI PUKUL 9, SAMPAI 930 TU APAA??' muahahaa. itu shopping, can't help. haha.

arrive at school. broken mood which makes me bring myself farrrrr from people. tak far mana lah.
but at least i know, hey i'm independent what! can release the stress by myself. not doing stupid things except for eat eat eat and shopping. pastu, 'umi nak duit lebih minggu ni. keringgg. keringg sangat.' independent giteww! haha.

me at school today. ya ya seleyyy habis! haha. oh ya all of the people above ARE VERY NICE! love them much much. =)

then, INI KISAH PELIK.
lepas balik sekolah, which supposed to be very sleepy day lah, sebab bangun awal malam tadi tido lambat.
TAPI....
i washed the shoe, clean the car, laundry the baju, made video for majlis penutupan anti-dadah and WHY I'M NOT SLEEPY?
gila macam gempak ah kan, ini sungguh jarang berlaku. mana mungkin si kuat tidor tetiba tak mengantok.
but i did it! awak, dah boleh kawen ah. konpemmm! dah kurang tidor dah. muahahaha!

and petang, emm nice evening.
pegi ajak dila basuh kereta kat belakang blok. dila cuci motor dia.
aku basuh kereta, dengan TIADA PAIP DAN PERLU BERANGKUT AIR.
makin kotor adalah kereta tuuu. serius! hahaha.
pastu gik makan kat awe, having a chat with roommates, and malam.

video dah siap! alhamdulillah....
malam ni verbatim.
tapi rasa nak pergi jogging ah jap lagi.
rindu peluh! boleh? hahaha.

tapi laa ni tengah ada mood nak buat verbatim. better do them first. kan?


esok............ seems like no plan yet.
tapi tak payah gatal boleh?
AR tak buat lagi...
nak pegi library. inshaAllahhh. =)

okbai!

oh ya, after all, Saturday in the room not really suck! long day but THIS IS WHAT I REALLY WANT!

this is F awesome!

Assalamualaikum =)


title bukan mencarut okayy. it just a song that i like. thrift shop kot tajuk dia. yang best tuuuu.

aku rasa takdak yang lagi awesome melainkan life aku yang sekarang ni. cewah! yes even full with things sampai dah tak melepak dengan kawan suma tu, tapi i iz enjoy and happy.

kalau tak happy pon sikit ja la pasal tak dapat duit. haha. yang lain serius happy.

mana tak happy, sekolah pukul 1230 baru p so i can sleep whatever time that i want plus wake up pon sukati aku. pastu kat sekolah, even though pening dengan macam-macam hal, it's SO BEST wa cakap lu!

busy memang sangat busy. it's like, kau datang letak beg, masuk kelas, jumpa students, buat side-side works, tetiba pandang jam, eh dah pukul 7? kadang-kadang tu, fail dalam beg pon tak dan nak usik. tetiba dah balik.

balik malam, settle kan hal-hal internship like report itu ini, research, blah blah blah, tetiba dah pagi. pastu tido. seminggu macam sejam je berlalu. BEST!

dan lagi best..... working life ni differ tau dari student life. kau akan jumpa and belajar all new things in a day. apa ya new things ni... emm tah can't give example. all i can say is.... IT'S AWESOME!


so, bcs of this, frankly speak..... i can't wait to jump to the working life. sangat sangat sangat tak sabar!

tapi sedih la nak habis belaja ni. banyak sangat benda yang disedihkannya. tapi......

NAK KERJAAAA!!! hahaha.

inshaAllah kalau rajin and can get along well with the works, nak contnue master. inshaAllah..... =)


okbai!

pimple.

Assalamualaikum =)


boring ah buat logbook tu. rehat jap. dah ah lupa tengok last total berapa. terbengkalai la kerja-kerja mengira aku. isk.


tadi iteww jumpa cinta hati. iteww sangat tau. haha.

tapi sentap habis-habis oih, first thing dia cakap lepas aku berdiri bawah lampu, 'apesal muka ko ni makin hari makin banyak jerawat eh?' sentap tau i olsss!

tengok ah baju lawa kee, brooch besar kite kee, apa-apa lah. ni jerawat! fine la fineee.


tapi senanya aku sedar gak sejak-sejak pakai safi rania gold ni, aku kerap berjerawat. dia da ah tanpa henti. cam ni, harini kat pipi, seminggu pipi hilang kat hidung seminggu hidung hilang, kening dan terus dan terus....

tak sesuai ke apa safi rania ni? tapi best bau wangi. muka pon rasa ah lembap-lembap sikit, tak kering ja macam dulu. pastu lagi best nampak macam putih sikit. muahaha. orang ah kata, bukan iteww. hehe.

sayang ah nak stop. sebab dia best. ke ni sebab cuaca jugak? ye ah sekarang cuaca macam apa pulak. kejap panas, kejap sejuk. da ah kat skeolah, peluh dan terik adalah mainan hidup. i guess sebab ni gak kot.

sampai hujung tahun ni tak ok gak, ok bakal cari safi lama saja lah. best jugak, cuma tak rasa dewasa pakai safi biasa tu. muahaha.


ok saja dah gatal tangan nak apdate. okbai! =)

jerawat tak jerawat. makan kena puas. puas = makan je cara camana pon asal kenyang. yeay!

duit besar.

Assalamualaikum

jap jap rasa nak update gak hat ni. jap research sat gik aku sambung. 5 minutes.

look at the people who bought the phone so easily, ate expensive food like having millions money in a bank, went for holiday around the world as easy as finger snap make me wonder...

HOW MUCH MONEY THEY NEED TO DO IN A DAY EH?

be a not-so-rich child, makes me always think money is so valuable so PLEASE DON'T FINISH IT SO EASY!

but them....... seriously damn wonder in a month how much did they get?

ate the most simple food, with the crazy price everyday, isn't it need much much money?

so, HOW MUCH? HOW MUCH?

who will i ask eh? - tapi ni tak penting sangat.

lagi penting is.....

CAN I FEEL THEM ONE DAY????

i really want to feel how can i spend 50 ringgit without thinking, without care. WANT TO FEEL THIS SO BADLY!!!!

Mohon Allah mudahkan semuanya lepas grad ni. Aminnn...

grad? ah few weeks left. banyaknyaa kerja aku wey!!!! huwah.

okbai! ;(

Awkward.

Assalamualaikum :)

This is the things that I could say kind of awkward for me.

1) Read at your research topic hundreds time. Eh betoll eh? Career guidance ke group guidance? Em, CDM eh? bukan C-path? Oh. Awkward getting worst when just close the book, claim as headache and sleep. Ya! Byee research.

2) Just scold the whole cls bcs of crazy-wild-attitude. After finish with the babbling, one student come and say SORRY CIKGU. Terharu, sebak. Angkat tangan, pandang lantai, cakap ok. Tertitis air mata. Getting awkward when... Masa habis, cikgu tengah menangis, students tgh diam berdiri, cikgu nak angkat muka camana utk keluar kelas? Berjaya keluar kelas, otw back to bilik kaunseling bump into few friendly students, with the red eye and can't say too much just.... Fake smile! Damn awkward. So plis don't cry in the class.

3) :(_/•",!:,'/?;_"!/351!'@.!.:(:;'-:$;_' - MOST AWKWARD CAN'T TELL MUCH!

4) Can't be as others girl joke around in a group of friends (boys and girls) bcs ________________________. Kind of awkward. I need normality, neutrality, etc. Hoping for it one day. Haha.

5) Spell awkward for many times make me feel like... IS IT THE CORRECT SPELLING??? AWKWARD. Yes kot. Kan?


Okbai. :)
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Career fair job street 2013 review.

Assalamualaikum...

Ni tengah assembly, cam biasa lah assembly sekolah pok pek pok pek pasal disiplin murid. Aku pon tak paham lah, apa degil sangat budak sekolah laa ni. Cakap harini, esok buat balik. Serius macam kan tengah pakai otak lembu je dorang tu. Tak paham den!

Oh ya review career fair kann tajuk entry ni..


So bulan 3 hari tu aku berpoyo-poyo nak pi career fair ni. Poyo tak ingat-ingat siap neves2, siap review experience others bagai haaa...

So when I went there....

1) Most of the job offers there are related with engineering and economics course. So, kind of happy ah kan for them bila banyak offers then u can drop few resumes every where. Oh ya, human resource pon antara job yang banyak offer. As in for my course, out of (tah berapa booth tah) ada satu je counselor position. Boleh takk satu jee? Ohmai ohmai.


2) Must and must and must be ready to speak english all the time! Bcs while u walk in front of their booth, u will be ask by them like.... "What works that you looking for?" Or "are you interested with our company?". Dia cam very sudden, kalo org yang tak biasa speaking cam iteww ni memang neves ah kan tetiba kena approach cam tu. Sampai satu tempat ni, masa mula mula sampai, orang tu tanya "hi, are you interested to work with us?" Aku gik jawap "No!" Muahahaha. Sombong gils! Haha

3) Must be very very sure abt with your qualification what job suits u well. What kind of job that u are looking for. Macam aku, sampai2 tetiba rasa x sure. Apa eh keja yang sesuai? I take counseling so obviously it just counselor but... Counselor is so so limited job. So... Just walk around with no motive. Sedeyy!

4) Pressure might help kot! Yela lagi kau pressure cari keja, lagi la kau betul2 mencari dan ingin dicari. As it for me... Pressure tu tak rasa lagi. So... Maleh maleh la kan..

5) Career clinic dia very helpful! Thank you for the jobstreet team!


Emm emm itu ja kot. Basi oih entry ni. Maleh benor nak apdate. Haha.

Ok assembly nak abis dah. Nah jamu sikit gambo dari bb lopek nih.

Okbaiii :)

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Isnin.

Assalamualaikum...

So esok is Isnin. (Alahai, benda cam ni pon nak apdate kaa? Haha)

Biaq p kat aku la noh, kata blog aku kannn. Haha.

Isnin kali ni aku macam tak sabar nak pi sekolah. Huyai persis guru guru cemerlang dak I ni? Haha.
Tak sabar sebab....
I want to do my best to complete or to.... Complete jela yang sesuai. Complete my total session. Ei scary habaq hang. Da ah tinggal few weeks, dalam few weeks ni banyakkk lagi session yang tak cukup.
This week I was planned to pick up all new client and count them as double if terpaksa.
Dahtu nak buek camano laei kan?
Tipu sunat... Takpa kot. Serius oh terpaksa.


Ok sebab esok isnin, me in the purple mood. So.... Let's purple tomorrow. Even Jumaat itu hari purple dah, otokeii dihari yang aku bersemangat, I think purple, red and blue could be warna pesorak.

Ahem ahem, kena kawen pakai tiga kaler ni la kot. Sebab kalo tak pakai, nanti kawen tak semangat. Sila pilih satu kaler to my dear future husband. Haha.

Ok dah panjang. Kan best leh apdate blog sebelum tido cam ni.

Lepas ni peminat-peminat I swear u gaiz won't missed my entry bcs I will update every single free time. Muahahaha. (Bajet angat tau itew ada peminat)

Okbai! Nah gamba sekolah last week.. Byeee.

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Testing kedua

Ok hat ni test buh gambaq pulak. Tengok apa jadi. Wah semangat haa.

Ya laa dah boleh kann. Best ahh! Yey. Yey. ;)

Okbai! :)



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Testing

Ni test update pakai bb. Before ni dok try tak penah jadi. Meh try kali ni jadi ka dak..

Test pendek-pendek sudahh. Okbai! :)
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JK

enough say. that's the mood right now.

why?

why?
why?


sendiri pun tak paham.

okay tak payah layan, jom buat kerja melambak ituu. ;(

satu benda baru

Assalamualaikum =)

nak gak kan update blog even mata dah nak bukak pon tak boleh.

this weekend, i could say suck ah kan mulanya sebab.... YA NEED TO WAKE UP EARLY ON WEEKEND! hello i student kot, bukan bini orang. bagi la rehat. kan kan. TAPI....

things switch to most most most memorable and awesome. how? ya when i just participate, be the part of the team, emm and enjoy every single moment. so things getting best lah. even menjanda pon best jugak tau. serius awak, SERIUS! haha.


oh ya. benda baru tu is......

this few days, aku hari hari kena marah dengan kak hana sebab tak reply message.

"bukan nak bagi tau dah sampai uia"
"bukan nak bagi tau dah balik sekolah"
"bukan nak bagi tau nak datang lambat"
"BUKAN NAK BALAS MESSAGE!"

macam-macam lah lagi. itew rasa macam tetiba itew ada kakak yang caring and love love tat iteww. LOL

mula-mula kena marah pasal benda ni, i was like..... eh kena eh?

seriously, be a girl in a family plus the first one, really train me as an independent. jarang sesangat ah aku nak report nak buat itu ini. PLUS, I'M NOT GOOD WITH TALKING IN THE PHONE WITH FAMILY.

"sihat? buat apa? dah makan? oh okay. byee" ini je. depan-depan baru reti cakap banyak-banyak.

dengan kekasih pulak. cewah cewah kekasih bagai. lagi lah tak kan. dengan dia busy, aku pon tak menyempat nak text nak apa, so.....

TEXTING IS NOT MY THING!


but lately, change! haa, siap wish-wish good night ke kak ros, kak hana. siap dapat morning wish lagi haaa. ni sebab program kat uia ni laa. tapi..... thank you my dear sisters! you gaiz awesome. muwah.

LOVE MY CURRENT LIFE AND ROUTINE LIKE ______________________.

okbai mengantok. =)


kak ros dengan kak hana ni cikgu kaunseling kat sekolah aku dok pektikal ni laa. another new person in my awesome life is cikgu deva and cikgu redza. ALL AWESOME!

thank you Allah for this chance. wish this could be forever and ever.... =)

hey ya!

Assalamualaikum =)

this is my super busy week. cewah cewah. we ( me and jiha) will conducting the explorace, which the main committee only both of us. we prepare the module, we buy the things, prepare the things, gather the participants, while dealing with other other commitment. like relief class, find client, finishing our last semester project. oh ya one more thing, MINGGU ANTI-DADAH.

this is the time when i do feel like, why it's only 7 hours eh at school? i need 14 hours! all going so fast. till... ya we didn't meet the principal yet. can't find the very free time for meet all the helpers for this running man program. banyak lagi lah tak buat. barang tak beli lagi.

sampai kan tadi itew tidor termimpi lupa bawak botol untuk satu game dalam explorace ni. Masya-Allah tersentak beb tido iteww! committed kann, tido pon termimpi-mimpi. muahaha.


even the school program normally it just like, asal-ada, i really want to make this, our program, as the 'real program'. with the big hope like students are satisfied, objective are achievable, information are really with them and all.

but ya, do something as what we able to do, don't burden ourselves. BUT....

for me, burden ourselves first with the all best effort we could do, then..... doa banyak-banyak kat Allah with the hope all can happen as planned and later let the perancangan Allah tetapkan segalanya.

inshaAllah, kalau niat baik, tak langgar mana-mana garis panduan yang ditetapkan-Nya, all will go as planned. inshaAllah.... aminn.


ini jela kot. catatan untuk hari ni. ni tengah buat list of structuring before the program.

even the busy seems so suck like.... you can't sleep pretty much tight, but hey life is just once, so.... BE HAPPY WITH ALL THESE COMPACT THINGS! at least with this life you experienced a lot. yeah  A LOT! -syukur Allah for all these chances you given to me.


random sikit:
- aku dah jadi cikgu yang garang. sorry students doesn't mean i hate u guys, but with the works overload, plus I REALLY WANT U GUYS BE A PEOPLE, that is why laa me turn to monster.
- harini baru teringat nak bukak fb 'orang tu'. seriously FB is not his thing.then what did you do eh along a day? stalking? working on your design je ke? or GAMING? i bet game. perhaps. haha
- money flow so fast on this CUTE APRIL. i iz sad. iskk.
- can't really find the time to send the resume lah. kadang-kadang je sempat. patutnya one a day. huwah! Allah, mudahkan semuanya lepas ni. Aminn.


okbai! =)

protokol penulisan rasmi

Assalamualaikum =)


once upon a time, while doing the poster for program under my course, i just listen and do whatever my lecturer said. most of the time, i just wait for her word laa as for the wording in the posters, banner, bunting or whatever. all i need to consider is the design, the color, the...... basically the poster appearance lah. WORDING? not even think too much. if ada pon, pikir mana nak letak je word-word tu. itu je mudah!

but when i turn into this practical setting, all need to be think by my own. sebab kena pikir sendiri tu, sebab i'm the one who wants to do them. ya as a way to express my interest as well as help the school. not school ah, UBK perhaps?

so, first time tu LOTS OF MISTAKES! muahaha. masa tu buat poster counseling promotion. tapi since tu i learn a lot. ohhh, should be like this, like that. about the font size, etc.

since that, ada la few poster dah terhasil. and alhamdulillah, slowly they realize my interest and...appreciate it, i could say. tak appreciate mana lah, tapi macam penah la harapkan iteww. so itew is kembang ah. mih mih.


so last week, i came into principal room. to get the approval for Kejohanan Bola Tampar program book. then i learn very a lot! very very veryyy....

1) NAMA ORANG MUST BE CHECK AND MUST BE CORRECT! no matter what.

2) kalo satu ada titik, semua mesti bertitik! like..... Amir B. Ahmad. semua lepas-lepa tu wajib ada titik. Ahmu B. Arip. lebih kurang lah. pendek katanya mesti STANDARDIZED.

3) design untuk gambar ke apa ke, must be formal. after all school kan, what u expect? formal yang mana, tak beri kesan negatif ke students. formal yang mana each of it must represent something. kalo buat orang tangan ke atas, why that man buat cam tu??

4) lagi..... emm, biasa la italic bold suma tu ada function

dah la tetiba dah malas. nak p buat verbatim. MALASNYA NAK BUAT MENATANG TUUU! isk.

okbai!

poster anti-dadah 2013.

so this is what i am doing for this night. hopefully, they can accept this.. and wish the students are excited to join. Aminn... =)

i love doing this and....

this me and jiha project to decorate the counseling room. wish tomorrow can finish them! inshaAllah... =)

nanti itew letak gamba new look of bilik kaunseling tu tau... napew itew itew ni? sebab bilik tu kan dah jadi cam itew itew la. gegirl gegirl gitew. ada banyak kaler, cheerful baq ang. haha. tunggu gamba ehh konpem korag akan guna buat konsep wedding nanti. HAHA.

okbai!