Assalamualaikum =)
I'm so happy with my previous life before. I like the children, I like my study mood and works, I like my love life, I like how's the family gathering function, I like to hanging out with friends around me, all those things I like them like a lot!
but seems slowly thing change, mood change, environment and situation change, I need to leave few things that i like. for good.
at this age, I don't know what had happen, I lost focus in the snap of finger, I be brave but end up turn to be rat that scared of cat, I being lovely but end up I sad like crazeeee. sigh
as for my next and next move to life, I should think about myself now. maybe this is the time I should walk alone, look at the Allah creation and appreciate them, find the good thing on me and use it, be more responsible, accept my weakness and control it. yes yes I should. I'm getting older and matured. hewh.
those up word seems pathetic. I do feel the same. But sometimes, the test, the sadness, the madness bring to few realization of life. isn't it?
I need a beach, sit near to it, look at how the children play and....... enjoy those life. Yes, I need that. But I wish I am at the high place and nobody can see me that smile, laugh and cry together with their mood.
snap!
okayh works in front of here. I should finish it first. kbai. kbai.
*a bit relief.
